Front yard

Front Porch....

Yeah, they need some water...lol!Actually Kennedy planted this one...

<-----Walking up to the front porch.

<------Little farm collection of planters, aren't they super cute

<------ Hanging flowers...its beautiful!!!

I already posted some pics of my favorite backyard stuff. But I haven't shared my front yard stuff that is my most favorite. It sure makes a difference with lots of flowers and lots of garden decor. I find that I am really, really enjoying my yard thus far. I'm happy that last year we painted the front porch because this year we are able to use it. Although it needs to be pressured washed I still went ahead and added in some stuff on it. Our biggest challenge this year has been the grass. We have a huge spot that keeps being really patchy. What we did a few years ago...not this winter (we learnt from the year before!) but we shovelled a little spot for Bandit off the deck in the winter so he could pee there and not be in deep snow. Well doing something good, turned into something bad for us! It was horrible!!!! By spring it was a HUGE-HUGE patch and took nearly all damn summer last year to grow in. This year, I threw down TONS of topsoil and seed and I have been watering the heck out of it...it grew in pretty good so far but we'll see. And no, we won't be doing that again for him (sorry Bandit!)

Now, our front yard looks good but the trailer is totally obstructing the view of the front porch from the street now!!!!

Thursday.

Gooooooood Morning!

Ahhhh, *this* is what it feels like to send the kids to the bus and just relax at home for the morning, without rushing too work. I loooooooove it :o)

Today, I did just that. But I do have things to do in a little while. I'm waiting for Costco to open so that I can head there. As well, I have to be at the kids school for Mack's grade 6 Farwell. I will take pics forsure!

So a funny thing. Its almost sad to admit this. But I will.

I use to load pics up on here, ONE AT A TIME! Yup, seriously. Up until yesturday when I saw the little feature "add more photos!" and I can add up to 5 AT A TIME...I can't believe it! Too funny! So, not I can almost promise (almost, I said!) that I will be adding to my blog more. Plus, with MORE time on my hands...I really have no excuse not too.

Today, after the farwell I will be heading to the RV dealership to pick up the trailer...Fabe will meet me there after work...yeah! We will bring it home, but I won't have too much time to play with it because Mack has soccer @ 6:15pm. Its his LAST game of the year (unless they make playoffs, which will be determined if they win tonight!). Our team has gone from 14 kids, down to 9-10 most games. Kinda frusterating. Last night we started off with 8 players. No one to sub. Thankfully 2 kids came later, or else they would have been extremely tired. Mack is getting ANOTHER cold I can't believe it! He had one May longweekend, then one only a few weeks ago (pnemonia, when Kennedy was in hospital) and then again now...weird! I think that it might be allergies, but I'm not 100% sure. Anyhow, he keeps chewing his damn nails (yuck!) which I am sure is why he is getting sick often...gross! But in the meantime, I am going to get an appt for allergy testing...only makes sense. Fabe has lots of allergies (environmental, pets and almonds and shrimp) Kennedy, environmental (grass too!) and pets so I am sure that he is the same. But I just want to make sure I know exactly.

I have a few loads of laundry to put away. Other then that, I have been washing bedding for the trailer and I keep adding to the ever-growing pile of 'crap' for the trailer. Now, I am not sure I want all of that to go into it anymore....its too pretty ;o)

Well, I will update later....and post pics (and not one by one!) of the new trailer!

Tara

So pretty!

I did this pic of Kaiya just messing around with this photoshop type site (picnik.com) and this turned out soooo cute! I was thinking of ordering it. I love it!!!! Getting a framed one maybe for Amanda...I just love it for some reason!!!!

Bandit-isn't he soooooo cute!!!!
My good-old birdhouse...
The deck, up close.
A pretty flower from the garden
Welcome to my backyard!!!!

Summer 08 so far...

I picked up these pots from Goodwill. The whole set was about 12.00! Pretty good! And they actually matched after the deck was painted and the patio set was out...so I left them this color! Here I had huge plans of painting them...but I didn't have too!
My little flower bed...
A basket from Goodwill which I planted some flowers in..
I LOVE this garden bike! Something about it...and it looks GREAT in the back yard garden!
My long flowerbed...

Our deck so far, we don't have the umbrella up as we ALWAYS have to take it down because of the wind. But don't mind the black (scratched off) paint on the garden doors (thanks Bandit!). But we painted the deck, it looks soooo much better now. And then I bought an outdoor garden rug! I love it!!!! Everything blends really nicely. I love sitting out there now and enjoying my new favorite drink (see below!) We have never painted the deck. We weren't even going too then Fabe bought stain and it just didn't go on nicely at all. So we had leftover fence paint and we decided to go with that! Muuuuuch better now! Its so 'matchy' out there! Anyhow, its nice to be able to enjoy it now...before it was kinda an eye-sore with the natural wood.

It's going to be my new favorite drink! Yummy!!!!!! Its perfect for when I am craving coffee and don't want to drink anything hot on sunny summer days!

Kennedy at the Beaumont water park, we went last weekend with my friend Ronda and her 3 kids.

Brrrrrr, she is cold!!!!

Playing in the water...

Kennedy LOVES Kaiya...

Isn't she cute? She lo

Wednesday

I am so happy that school is out tomorrow for the kids. We WERE going to change Kennedys school becauase I HATE the VP. But guess what, BOTH the principal and VP are leaving...so I am sure that some changes need to take place and I am sure that it will now. I feel better leaving Kennedy there as her friends are all there but I also couldn't handle having the VP for several more years. But anyhow...its good then.

We are suppose to be getting the trailer tomorrow evening. Yeah!!! We WILL have it for the weekend!!! Yiiippeee!!!! I will take pics of it tomorrow its soooo purrrrdy!

I am at work only for another 25 mins.

Fabe is training with the installation manager..he gets along really well with him so thats good. They see management material in Fabe...good. Not sure if he would ever take a position like that though as he likes field work.

What else? Yesturday I did some work in the yard. I finally pulled up the little flower bed and planted some flowers in it. I hadn't weeded it yet. So I did that. Then, I weeded around the fire pit and then also I planted MORE bedding plants in my big flowerbed...then, finally I put down fresh mulch in the beds. It looks very nice. I have a ton of planters and containers now, it looks nice.

What else? Tongiht Mack has a make-up soccer game as he missed last night as it was raining...so tonight we go. Then the last game is Thursday..yeah!!!! Then we are OFF OFF OFF!!!!!! I am soooo happy!

Well I have 20 more mins to go....hoooo hoooo hummm....

Hey!

Things have been busy-but a nice busy! We have been spending SO much time outside...with neighbors and what not. I do love where we live though, I love the neighbors. This weekend we invited our neighbors to come....from there we invited more people and so far we have like 5 families coming to the lakelot with us! Should be fun!! I can't wait! HOPEFULLY we have our new trailer by then....grrrrr!!!! They have been telling us for TWO weeks now that it will be here...in a few days, in a few days...so annoying! So anyhow, we STILL don't have the trailer. I mean, we COULD sleep in the cabin....now that its renovated (lol, its 2 years old!) but we wanted to 'test' out the trailer...still. It should be here. Fabe started ANOTHER new job. His other job, wasn't for him. Not at all. He wasn't 'getting' it and he just wasn't enjoying it at all...they really wanted him to stay on but he couldn't. He got another job...and the hours are FORSURE 7-3 (or 4pm). Can't complain and its what he likes doing...wiring, alarm systems, phones, internets, etc! He loooooooves that kind of work. I'm happy for him. I don't like 'job changes' but you can't stay at a job that you don't like. He tried it, did it for 1.5 months and couldn't do it anymore. Good for him, finding somehting that he ENJOYS! I'm done work as of Wednesday....yeah!!!!I have been coming in to help here and there but now I am done forsure. Mack has a grade 6 grad on Thursday. Then Friday is no school...I will be busy getting ready for the weekend (HOPEFULLY getting the trailer ready!!!)

On the weekend, we did the Beaumont water park. Thats was nice...

I had wanted to take in the Aboriginal Day celebrations but it rained and I didn't want Kennedy or Mack to be sick from being wet.

Well, I better run. I am just at work now...

Tuesday!!!

The lake...
Now we will have to add new pics, as the cabin is sided! I picked out a cottage deep red color! I guess it looks really, really nice!!!!

Kaiya, obviously just coming out! She looks so big here!!!

This one, just at home...yes its a hospital blanket. Amanda didn't pack a blanket for her! (lol!)

Well today was a really good day...

we sold the trailer already...I think that I underpriced the thing...(shitty!) but I put in on kijjii and facebook at 11pm and by 7am I had cash offers to come and pick it up today...wow! A sure tale sign that it was a good deal...oh well. I know who bought it, so I know that they will get use of it.

Then, Fabe was offered another job...I'm sooooo happy for him. He HATES his 'new' job...and seems so unhappy. And a job isn't something that I like to see people unhappy with. So, he was offered this one...MUCH better hours (7-3 or 8-4) and no weekends still and doing exactly what he wants to do!!! YEAH!!!!This will make life easier on all of us!

Hmmmm, I worked until 12:30 today. It was good, did shopping and bought the staff lunch. It was nice.

Did the deal on the new trailer...hopefully we get it this weekend. We have Rikki this weekend...but thats about it going on. I would have like to get it sooner but they don't even have it in stock and we have to wait for it to come in..annoying! I wanted to camp in it this weekend. Man, its CRAZY how cheap new trailers are...the payments are sooooo low...our trailer is nice. I can't wait to go camping in it...I'm excited!

And what else....the kids are good. Kennedy has a check up appt tomorrow...I'm only working 1/2 the day...

And what else...

Oh I finally uploaded my camera on here! Geesh! Ordered all the pics...all 333 of them. Ugh. So here a few and now I can FINALLY take and add pics...

Hello.

I am still here. Still planning to keep up with my blog...but we'll see.

Things are really, really good. I love only working 3 hours a day. Although today I worked 6, it was okay. But 3 is nice. Not too much to be stressed out from working all day, and just enough to get me out of the house and feeling busy. I am getting so much stuff done that I haven't had time to do. Today Bandit got his shots, which were due in Nov. Although my vet wasn't worried when I called them in Dec I was stressed out about finding the time to do it...so its done. He is good. Doesn't want him to gain any more weight, said he is at a good weight now..I am shocked because he is a little porker. He is good otherwise. Glad thats done.

We went camping this weekend to Ole MacDonalds resort with our neighbors. It was great fun! Sooooo nice to go somewhere other then the lake lot. It was fun for the kids. So much for them to do there. It really confirmed that we NEED a bigger trailer though it was a little cramped. So we are going to sell our trailer and get a new one this year, more then likely. But yeah, it was great! They have cabins there for rent if anyone is interested its on their website and its only 2 hours away from here...nice shallow beach too.

Today I met the new owners of the daycare where I work at. They are begging me to return in Sept so we will see. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows.

The kids are healing well. Mack has a worse cough then Kennedy. Kennedy wasn't feeling well at school today, they called me but then she rested there and was better..so that was good. They are both outside enjoying the weather. Mack has soccer tonight. I have TONS of planters that I NEED to get filled so maybe I will drop him off and go to Zellers or Canadian Tire and buy stuff to put in them. My grass is filling up really well from the pee spots.

Hmmm, what else. I feel really good. Eating HORRIBLE but I feel good...things are good now. Not stressed from working, working, working...they are SO short staffed but the old owner is now forced to hire more people as you can't sell the daycare without proper staff.

And, what else????

I dunno...still got SO much to do...now the trailer has to be cleaned to sell it...ugh.

Anyhow, I better go.

A catch up post.

Well things have been crazy busy since being home....BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING!!!

The housework was behind a lot. I mean, it was 'kept' up with a little but the deep-deep cleaning wasn't getting done. So I have been doing a huge 'to do' list this week. With everyday having something major to get done and I have done it. The house is clean!!!! The bathrooms are all clean, floors are done, kitchen done, closets done, winter stuff FINALLY put away, etc..so thats great! Today on my list is the laundry put away ( I have put away 1 basket this far!) and then wash the walls on the mainfloor and hopfully up here too. Tomorrow, I am unsure what we are doing. If we are going camping or not? If not, we need to get some paper stuff sorted out and filed. As well, we need to figure out what we are going to do with our trailer. We might buy a new one...not sure at this point. It would be okay to stay home this weekend...and get this stuff taken care of before the summer arrives. I have worked everyday for 2.5 hours a day trying to get some stuff taken care of at work. I'm not going in tomorrow though.

There is just so much to catch up on...wow. Bandit needs his shots (overdue actually) I need to book an appt with my dr for a mole to be removed (lol, tmi!) and register Kennedy for school and start buying Macks supplies. Phew...plus there are LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of projects to get done around the house...(lots of things!) and I am trying to tackle it now before the kids are out of school. Oh yeah, plus I need to register them in daycamp a few weeks in the summer (their choice!)...

The other day I went to Goodwill and bought ALOT of planters. Some which I need to paint and what not...but I have sooooo many now that I am done. I just need to fill them.

Some how I NEED to go to Superstore (maybe tomororw??) and get ALL of the pics off my camera (tons of daycare ones!) and finally be able to use my camera again...its got hundreds of pics on it...

Well, I better get back to doing my stuff around here...the kids willbe home in less then an hours now....

Tara

Ahhhh Home Sweet Home.

I love it.

We got home about 4pm yesturday...it took me FOREVER to unpack. I did the laundry from the hospital and unpacked the majority of stuff. Took FOREVER. We ordered Pizza last night and ate and relaxed. Kennedy played at the neighbors house for hours and came home when the pizza came. We did her treatment (which she MUCH prefers doing at home now and didn't even complain!) we ate. It was raining on and off last night. Put Kennedy to bed at 11pm and I feel asleep shortly after. Slept in until 8:30am today. Felt great...no worries upon waking. Read the paper, ate breaky...ahhhh. Its not as sunny as I would have like it to be today..but oh well. I am home and I am NOT going to complain about anything else...We did Kennedy's treatment this morning already, she is due again in 1/2 hour...Fabe is in the shower..going to take my car for a differential fluid something....change? I guess. I have a few errands to run like return movies, Dollarama for flower pots to decorate...then Zellers for some more plants and stuff...on the daypasses that Kennedy I had we wanted to spend the time outside so we have been doing yard work. Thankfully its helped me too. We extended the flower bed we had to a much bigger one and filled it with some flowers. Also, I pulled up and got rid of some raspberries as they were taking over my whole garden. Today I would like to buy a few more rose bushes and some little spruce shrubs. All of my planting containers are filled already...but I need to buy some more! I love yardwork...love it. Never use to love it..but I am really really enjoying it more with each year that goes by!

Fabe is loving being off on the weekends.

I figured out why things are hectic and stressful for me lately...

Fabe worked in Calgary for 2 weeks
The DAY he got home, 3 weeks ago Amanda was in labor.
Amanda stayed with us for 2 weeks, 1 weeks which Kennedy was in the hospital
1 more week with her in PLUS Mack sick...

So for the past month and abit I have been really overdoing alot of stuff...and doing everything for everyone else...thats why...

BUT, she is out. Amanda is home. Fabe is home (for now, he does have a week in Calgary coming up)...and I don't have work to worry about so much anymore...

This week I am going to work the mornings...not sure about everyday tho.

I have a few more errands to get done so I will have to see how much I actually work...

I don't plan on working everyday though, I know that..nor do I plan to work everyday until the end of the month...a few days here and there and thats about it...

I want to use up this time while the kids are in school and get done my major stuff...(kitchen needs total organizing!) plus the kids rooms, garage, etc...lots of miniprojects.

Anyhow, I want to go shopping...since I missed it for 2 weeks!!!!

Tara

Update...

Today is Thursday and we are still here. It is our 2-week anniversary for being here but we are STILL here. The dr's said 'we should be going home' tommorrow. SHOULD????? Yeah no. I NEED to go home tomorrow. Totally.

Kennedy is doing good. Still now 100%. She had a PFT (Pulm Function Test) done a few days ago which showed that she is down 17% from her last PFT in the middle of April. Just confirms that she had something bad on her lung. They said she should be back to where she was, in about 2 more months...we did a big walk today and she said she couldn't breath :o(

Mack is doing better. We were thinking he was going to have to go back to the dr's but he is much better now..still hasn't been to school all week...Monday he will hopefully better. Monday they will both go to school...and I to work for ONLY 2hours or so. I have a dr's note for missing work for a few weeks AND for modified hours for June..then I am DONE at the end of June... (lol)...

Anyhow...

Take care!

Update on Mack..

Fabe took him to the dr's and he has a pneumonia...he is on antibiotics. They sent him for a chest xray and sure enough...crazy. He has a fever and he is super achy..poor boy.

He is staying at home tonight..I am at the hospital waiting for Kennedy to go to sleep right now...then I am heading home...he needs me too..then I will drop him off at grandmas (MIL) tomorrow and he will stay there until he is better.

Poor kid...

Kennedy and I ventured to Walmart tonight for a little while..it was nice. Felt SO normal :o)

tara

One of the baby's on Kennedys floor

Has this...

http://www.answers.com/topic/spinal-muscular-atrophy?cat=health

"SMA" and its not good :( A normal healthy baby...little girl..and now with a life expendancy of 4 years old :o( I see mom every day a few times a day, and I just want to hug her...I can't imagine...

To think that CF'ers use to live to be only preschooled age...how far we have come..

I feel so so sad for this mom...

Day pass!

OMG!!!!

I am at home right now with Kennedy on a DAY pass..well a four hour pass. It feels SO good to be home..but no one is here.

Mack is really sick now, I'm sure with bronchitis or something...I feel so bad for him...my poor boy...he is going to stay at Grandma Joans (Fabes moms) for a few nights and she will baby him and get him feeling all better. My poor son...So he will miss a few more days of school...oh well.

I'm not sure if I am going to stay home tonight...I was thinking that I will stay at the hospital then come home in the morning for a few hours and spend time with Bandit then see about bringing Kennedy home again for a few hours...it just feels so so so good being home with her...

Anyhow...

Tara

Well Mack is sick...

Honeslty, I am trying to be thankful that ALL happens for us at once...we usually have very good luck and we are blessed in so many ways...
Today Mack's school called my cell at 2:15 (they are out at 2:30) and said he is sick...I talked to him on the phone. He started to cry saying that he feels so bad...then he had to walk home from the bus. I phoned to ask Amanda if she could go walk and meet him at the bus stop...and she wasn't home! I was sooooo mad! I asked her to be home so that he wouldn't be home alone...so my mom (who was looking forward to doing nothing tonight) came from downtown to my house to give him so meds and sit with him for awhile. Amanda came home finally. I was just so mad. Then its all good...now. I am putting Kennedy to bed then I am going home...I can't wait to sleep in my bed. My poor boy. He just wants me and I feel so bad not being there for him...ugh.

I am hoping with meds his head will clear up and settled down. Fabe is going to the lake with Mack and the dog...I will feel MUCH better with him being with them...then we just have a few more days next week...not sure how that will go...but yeah.

Anyhow...just a little update.

The picc line went great..thank God.

update from Lp

I dont' want to post another whole thing so here my update from LP:

She is doing well. Today was a horrible day for her and I. After 1 week of being here, its just adding up for the both of us...its just so hard to see all of these sick children...everywhere. I'm just so thankful for my children, because of my Gosh...CF is bad but so is cancer, multiple handicaps, huge tumors on the face, etc, etc, etc...I hate it. Everywhere I look there is something so bad. And its soo soo sad Honestly, I know that we all tend to take our healthy kids for granted...but may I please remind you all to consider how lucky we are. Kennedy was/is still feeling sorry for herself (as is I)...but I was telling her today to look around...*yes* we have it bad..yes, its not fair to have cf (her words) and yes, Mack (brother) is so lucky because he doesn't have to 'go through this'. But the fact is that we are in here every few years for 2 weeks. There are children in here since the past 2 months, 2 years...or more....we get to go home. We live a pretty normal life. Today was a very hard day for me, due to a hospital policy I was ticked off. But they figured it out today and it works in our favor now, but before it it was making me so sad. Anyhow, its over with now. Plus its been a week. Mack stayed home from school today because 'his tummy hurt' when I know deep down all my little 11 year old boy wants (and needs) is his mommy. Then I feel horrible for 'leaving' him....I have been going to spend some time with him, as I can...but then I feel horrible leaving Kennedy here..I can't win. My dh switched jobs and can NOT take time off during his training...so I don't have much support. Then, my dog has been getting NO attention..and I am totally into my dog and I feel horrible. He's all depressed and screwed up...I freaking out on my dh today knowing full well there is nothing that he can do...my mom has been helping alot with my son...but she lives downtown and its sooo much for her to pick him up after school, take him (downtown) and then drive him back to Millwoods for school in the mornings...he wants to be home more then anything...so finally after crying like 10 times today, I left. I left Kennedy with a volunteer and went home for a few hours...I NEEDED too. I watered my grass (lol) and took my dog for a big walk...and I feel/felt MUCH better...tomorrow Kennedy has her PICC line...she won't be able to eat/drink and I am going to hear about it (it could be all day, just depends when the operating room has an opening). BUT, it could be worse...much more worse.And, we are done in just over a week.Then our life will go on...We will enjoy summer and our lives...And the unit we are on, will still host many of the 'regulars' who have only known this place as home...So, it could be worse...but it could be better. And I'm trying so hard to not be selfish because Kennedy is suffering more then I (I get to go home and escape this place once in a while!)...Anyhow, thanks again...and thanks for reading this vent...

I'm miserable.

I am so miserable today. I'm just done with this place. Its nice outside and I am feeling sorry for KEnnedy and myself being in here. I am thankful that I was able to go to watch Mack at soccer last night but other then that...I'm just frickin crabby.

I snapped at Fabe...

I needed some time. So I took time to leave Kennedy at the Beach (playroom) and school. It was good there. It is nice being there for the kids here. It takes some time at least...

more infor

http://www.cancerbackup.org.uk/Treatments/Chemotherapy/Linesports/PICCline

About it...

ugh

I just posted another update...but Blogger was unable to do it...blah.

Anyhow, we put the paper work for Kennedy to get a a PICC line inserted. So we are waiting for the operating room to tell us when that will be...hopefully soon...her iv won't last too much longer. And left is her feet and neck...and neither of them are good places for her...

anyhow. I'm home for the night, Fabe is up there putting her to sleep. Mack and I just spent some time together,,,,and I am off to pack lunches and what not...

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

Tara

update

Hey everyone...just a quick update from the hospital. Kennedy is doing good. She is in good spirits despite being here. She has had a few visitors now so that makes her happy. Thankfully mom took Mack and Bandit out to the lake for the weekend. So I haven't had to worry about them and was able to spend my time up here. Thats been good. I am already for-warning Kennedy that I won't be staying here tonight. I pray that her IV doesn't blow. She is on day 3 of her one site.

Anyhow from Thursday morning we waited in the ER at the U of A until 10:30pm It was CRAZZZY! 13 hours in there. Finally we got moved up here. They had a horrible time getting her IV in and sent a big note up on her file to 'gaurd this IV with all of your life"(thats pretty bad) and basically her longest lasting IV has been 3 days...hopefully with being older it will last longer but they blow after a few days in the one spot. We are at the one spot...they have attempted all of the other sites. So we moved up to our own room and it was MUCH MUCH better. Its a nice big room with my bed and her bed....no roommates (hopefully it stays that way!). We slept bad. Morning came too soon...and it was a long day Friday, and we both slept better Friday night but we were woken for blood work (AT 12:30 AM and then 3AM!!!) They pick the *best* times to do it....(grrrr). Today is now Sunday and she ate her breakfast and she is waiting for me so we can go downstairs and I can eat my breakfast too...then will be going to a Cidadel music thingy at the "Beach" (a childrens program...BEST program for sick kids!) then we will eat...seems like thats how we pass time...waiting for her meals....eating my meals...then waiting for the next one...oh well.

Today Fabe is coming back at 5pm and I will take off. He will wait until she is sleeping and leave (she knows this)...and then we will both be at home...I will get Mack off to school and clean up abit at the house and then come back here...its crazy...but I will make it work....and I need to remember that Kennedy suffers too...its not about me...sure it does suck...but she suffers enough.

Anyhow, gotta go.

Sad.

I feel so sad and depressed. Kennedy has been admitted in to the hospital. She has been balwing non stop that she doesn't want to go...it breaks my heart to see her like this...

Anyhow. There are no beds (as of 5pm today) and they said that it will be a 6 hour wait. The dr just said rather then doing the waiting game tonight to take her home, pack her up and sleep well and we'll wait tomorrow...lovely.

I just want to break down and cry...I have been holding in my tears and I just want to go into bed and cry myself to sleep...its so stressful on the WHOLE family when this happens...

Anyhow, I just wanted to update and I don't think that I will be around a whole lot so I may not update too often (depends if there is internet nearby or not!). So much for her soccer...I have to try to balance Mack's soccer (and seeing him), the house, and the dog. Great...oh yeah and work...ugh.

Anyhow...Fabe can't even take time off as he just started his new job. So its just me, me, me and me...great.

I feel sick so I just wanna go.

Wednesday.

Smarty pants me totally missed that Monday was a holiday and I MISSED American Idol last night. I was bummed. First time I missed it...crappy. I will have to watch it tonight but still..just not the same...missing the final performances...ya know.

So, I am not sure if I am going to the job interview. For the future it makes sense but I mean for my children, should I let them down??? I dunno...scary...

Work is welll. Raining still today. I can't complain. People have lost their houses this past week due to NO rain so I'm in no spot to complain today about it...its good for the pee patches on my grass, thats all I know.

Today Kennedy has her follow up CF appt. Not sure what they will do about it, as she is still really sounding bad. In fact, for the first time in her life...running around at soccer last night actually was difficult for her..I don't know...and for the first time she has been complaining that its hard to breath... :o( Breaks my heart. I just wish I knew what it was...

Off that depressing topic.

Amanda is doing good still. She has been carting the baby around to the mall and what not...can't say I am fond of that being baby is only 3 days old But thats what young mommies do...I know that...she is proud of her baby. She's not getting much sleep anymore...baby is up quite a bit now. She is really a sweetie though. I have tons of pics BUT I have at least 150 of daycare pics son I don't want to upload daycare pics onto my computer...just in case I get hacked.

Anyhow, its 3pm and I gotta grab Kennedy from school and get her to the dr's office...

Update later....

Tara

Long Weekend.

Well it was a great long weekend. Friday-was spent cleaning and trying to determine if Amanda was in labor (lol). Then, Saturday was spent at the hospital in the morning to visit her and baby..then she got discharged. So we went downtown and got her stuff for her apartment...as she didn't bring any baby stuff to my house. Plus in the morning I went and bought her a carseat/stroller combo, its amazing how NICE these things are now a days for babies...wow! She was happy with it as she has a matching diaper bag (I didn't know it) so it worked out perfect. Anyhow, I finally got home at about 4pm from doing all that with her...she asked me to watch Kaiya so she can sleep, so I did that for a few hours. Woke her up at close to 8pm...she was well rested. Her first night went well. Sunday we WERE going to paint the fence but it was really windy and I didn't want 'crap' blowing on to it so we decided at 10am to head to the lake and at least get the trailer. So off to the lake we went. We got there about 4pm after loading the truck up with the kids quads and lots of water and 'stuff'. At least thats all out there...phew! We brought back the trailer...so thats on my 'to do' list now..clean it. Ugh. More work. Monday were painted the fence (A HUGE project off my to do list!) it looks soooo much better now. Now, I just can work on gardening and getting the patch spots to grow in. But I am very glad that its done...also the deck needs to be stained...but it won't take 9 hours like the fence did...my blisters on my hands!!!! Ouch! Then we bbq'd burgers...I ate like CRAP this weekend. And no walking. So tomorrow I am expecting a small gain...crappy! But I will be right back on track today...forsure. I am NO where near ready to resort back to my old eating habits.

Today, I work all day. Tomorrow, I work until 3pm as Kennedy has a follow up appt for her asthma issues from last week. She is still very, very wheezy. But at least we get checked out and I am going to ask for an xray to ensure its not an infection. Thursday I have (another) interview with Children's Services....ugh. I want the job really, really bad. Its the one that I was interviewed for last year BUT now I have plans for the summer off...what to do?!?!?!?!?! The kids will be so sad if I worked this summer now...BUT the job is my 'dream' job AND has a very good future for me...ugh!!!!!!

Anyhow, its 7:10am and I gotta start the morning rush hour.

Have a great day!

Tara

ps-thanks for the congrats about Amanda....and she is doing really well thus far.

Welcome to the world Kaiya....

Kaiya arrived at 12:30am today...We went to the hospital at 7pm after her contractions really started up. They had tappered off a while then started up at 5:30pm again...

Anyhow she weighs 6 pds 15 ounes She has a little hair, medium brown. Amanda did super well...adorable little girl! I will post a pic soon!

Who knows.

Amanda tells me that they are increasing but she is doing her make up, on MSN and texting on her phone...she seems and looks fine...so we are still at home....time will only tell I guess....

I'll keep you posted.

Tara

Maybe a baby????

We'll see...

Amanda woke me up at 8am saying that she has been having contractions since 4:30am...but very irregular. So she has been writing them down since then, and they are anywhere from 5-12 mins apart...so we are just waiting to see what way it gonna go. We did a big walk last night...so maybe that helped. I made her walk...otherwise she just sits on the couch all day. So we walked for slurpees (I had a Crystal Light one!!)....

Anyhow, we'll see....

Tara

A catch up post.

Well today is Wednesday already. This week is FLYING by. Today Amanda had her check up, she is still here. She is not even dialated (lol) and her cervix is thinning. She gained 1.5 pounds which is good as she lost 2 last week. She is starting to get really uncomfortable, but she is so close so hopefully she uses this time to rest. She just said "I can't believe that I am 117 pds, this is the heaviest I have been in my life" (pllllleeeeeeaase!).

Work is work. Understaffed. As usual. Oh but the gov't DID invest money into daycare!!! Yeah. Actually it increases my pay by 1.54/hour as we are not accredited yet. BUT if we were, it would be like 3/hour more!!!! The level 3 top up from the gov't is now 6.66/hour...on top of the daycare wage...so thats pretty good...I'm happy for the fellow level 3'rs finally hitting the 20/hour-ish mark...yeah!!! I have to figure out mine, with my salary!!!

And, Kennedy is still hacking along. Today we went to the U of A appt. Her pulm dr was shocked at how tight her chest is. He let all of us (mack, me and Kennedy) listen on the stethescope...sounds horrible. A total wheeze...horrible. So he told me every 4 hours she needs ventolin. And, gave her a prescription for Prednisone. Which will be fun...she was on it once before and it was horrible how HYPER she was..great. But whatever. We go back in a week...its good its NOT an infection tho...thankfully. He said, if she didn't look as good as she looked he would say that she is having an asthma attack...it was THAT bad. So I have to tell school that I will give it at 7, they need to give it at 11 and then 3pm...I'm going to set my alarm clock too...3am, 7am, 11am, 3pm, 7pm, 11pm, 3am...etc...oh well. He said no soccer, running and campfire smoke...he is actually worried she can have a full blown attack...scary.

Tomorrow is great. Its Thursday...early day...and 'my' Friday as I don't work Friday....yeah!!!!!!Then the long long long weekend...LOVE IT!

Well gotta get Kennedy in...

night

Monday....

Got the call from Kennedy's school to pick her up. Her tummy was sore...so I picked her up at 11:30am then came home with her. She ate and felt a bit better but her cough is horrible. So she had her machine and relaxed the rest of the day. Amanda is here now...she is feeling sick today. She came to Macks soccer practice and went on the swings so she might not have been able to stomach that. Anyhow, she is here for a few days at least. We are thinking that if she didn't have baby by the weekend we will chance it and go to the lake (not with her!) but if she goes into labor then worse comes to worse I will have to drive back from Lac La Biche...2.5 hours and I am sure she won't have the baby by then...maybe :o) She's finally looking like she is close to due...although at soccer one of the moms was SHOCKED she was due in a week...it was pretty funny.

Tomorrow, I am going to work. Kennedy has soccer practice however I'm not sure if she will go or not, her cough is really pretty bad. I called the dr's today actually for another reason to find out when her bone densitity test and then I mentioned that she has a cough. So, my only concern is not being on oral antibiotics at least if she was on Biaxin or something then I would feel better. I have a feeling we might need to go see dr on Wednesday so that will be fun getting that off work...then Friday...but I will just say ;o) "well I can take this week off if you would rather" that pretty much shuts them up...lol.

I walked today for 35 mins...it has been hard trying to get them in everyday but I have been doing it...I have walked everyday since last Thursday...pretty good...and even before that every 2nd day forsure...with Fabe away and soccer...it has been hard...but you gotta just make the time..and the rest falls into place...

Kennedy's turn to sleep in my bed tonight..but I can hear her hacking...so I hope that she doesn't cough all night...

Mack had a practice tonight. I was talking to one of the moms there. She is an amazing woman. She told me about the birth of her daughter 2 years ago...she was born at 7.5 months and lived for one month..she sounded beautiful. They only have one child now...just a son. And no more for them. They are from Morroco and I love hearing about her religion (Musluim)...so much 'bad' talk about that religion but ANY religion could be twisted. She didn't preach to me or anything ( I would be uncomfortable with that, with ANY religion) but she just told me about her country...I told her about the movie the Kite Runner and how it has inspired me to see people differently..its so easy to assume about other cultures but you should know where they have come from. On Friday one of my coworkers broke down telling me about her country Kosovo and how much they had back then...and here she lives in low income housing and works for nothing...and how Canada is just work, work, work and stress...its soooooo true. We are 'so' proud of this life though...sad really...

Anyhow, I gotta go to bed...

Tara

Sunday.

Well the weekend was fast and busy. Saturday we headed to Millet for a b-day party. It was good. Then we got home, Fabe had left to one of his friends house (from Shaw) for a 'get together' to say good bye to him. That was nice. So I didn't do much that night. Relaxed...walked for 35mins.

Sunday, slept in until 10:30am. Woke up to NO one home. Remembered after that it was Mothers Day and it all made sense...Fabe was running out to shop now for my gift. They got home, sure enough. Flowers and an Ipod...I have been using Kennedy's Ipod for walking. But its FILLED with Hannah Montanna songs...so a totally thoughtful gift was an Ipod-I am so happy. So Fabe and I downloaded songs (yes, we PAID for them on ITunes) and I have an Ipod all set up now...I even used it tongiht for my walk. Also, I hate the headphones which 'sit' in your ear. So he got me some actual HEAD phones that go over your head. Much better for walking. He cooked a big lunch, chicken, steak, rice, corn, veggies and bought fresh buns and we had his parents over for it. It was early as he had to leave to Calgary again tonight. He just left. I did Kennedy's treatments and set all of her pills out for the week in her pill organizer...the usual Sunday things...prepared a new antibiotics for her for the week. All routine now.

Speaking of Kennedy, oh my! She has a horrible=horrible cough. She had an appt a few weeks ago. All was really well. But from her throat swab she cultured pseudomonas (which is common in CF, we are all exposed to it daily but our bodies fight it and our lungs are not in a favorable condition to 'breed' it) anyhow, she has cultured it alot before so it was no big surprise, just means we need to ensure she gets her treatments (we have skipped them here and there when she is healthy if we are super busy)....thats just life and thats just the way it goes sometimes. BUT, I have a feeling her cough is due to this...she just has a horrible nasty cough also though a bronchitis type cough...started today. I will see how it goes and maybe call the clinic in a few days if it isn't showing signs of improving. Back of my mind is thinking her treatment for it (inhaled Tobramycin) might not be doing its full job...the only other alternative is IV treatments which we prefer not to do...because it takes 2 weeks for the antibiotic to kick in...by the way, thank GOD for Alberta Health because her inhaled stuff is over 3000/month of it...yikes!

Anyhow, off the depressing topic of her health...

Today I worked on the yard work, the pee patches were watered very well. I bought some more grass seed so I will be throwing it down onto the spots as well (again). I WILL get this done.

This week, goes like this:

Monday-Eye appts for Macks contact check up and my contact fittings. Then Soccer at 7pm for him.

Tuesday-NO SOCCER, yard work.

Wednesday- weight watchers then pig out after the meeting (lol)

Thursday- Off early, soccer for only Mack @ 6:15pm

Friday- OFF work, kids have a PD day and it is suppose to be 23!!!! Either prepare for camping at the lake OR yard work...

Amanda is coming tomorrow for the week...she has an appt on Wednesday. I can't decide if we should go to the lake as I am going in with her...but I also don't want to wait around all weekend either...its a long weekend and suppose to be a beauty!!!!! Fabe comes home Friday...yeah!!!

I'm happy to be off Friday...extra time with the kids is always a huge bonus.

Anyhow, gotta get the kids to bed...

Tara

*sigh*

Uh, what a long long week. By yesturday I was totally tired and worn down. Its not so hard doing it alone, actually that was the EASY part. But soccer was brutal rushing here and there. Thankfully on Tuesday there is NO soccer for Mack and Kennedy. Rikki is staying here with us for a while now until my mom comes back from PEI, Monday night. So she has a practice Sunday night, as well as Macks tutor come. Then Monday is Mack's practice then absolutely NOTHING Tuesday then Weight Watchers Wednesday...then Thursday Mack has soccer...then Friday Fabe home!!!! He's on his way home right now...he said the traffic is HORRIBLE on the DeerFoot. He's happy to be heading home. He had a good week. So thats good.

Work is work. And I can't wait until the end of next month...ahhhhh, I JUST can not wait!!!!

Today I have cleaned the house pretty good already...all week with us being so busy it managed to stay pretty clean...so I did a mop job and tidied and dusted. I had the laundry all caught up pretty much. I'm going to head to Zellers when the girls get back from the store. Kennedy has a birthday party tomorrow 1-4pm in Millet so I need to ensure that all the gifts are bought (its 3 kids in one party!!!! yuck!!!) I have some stuff but I am trying to find some Webkins...I know Toys R Us has them and if I have too I will run over there in the morning...

I would RATHER do yard work. Bandits piss spots are all over the frickin yard (AGAIN!) after I mended them all up last year...so thats my top project right now...lots of grass seed.

Today I bought some choclate brown canvas pics with a huge cream flower, it will be perfect in our room with the cream and chocolate brown bedding...I can't wait to put them up.

I have 300 pics on my camera...I need to take the card in though as some are daycares...so I can't put up any pics right now... sorry! I plan to blog next week though!

Actually I want to take before and after pics of the yard (pee spots) because last year it was UNreal how good I got them...you wouldn't believe how bad it was before...so yeah.

Weight Watchers is doing good. I lost 1.6 on Wednesday so I am down 7.8 pds after 2 weeks on it...pretty good!!!!

Anyhow, I will update more.

No, Amanda hasn't had her baby yet. She is almost 39 weeks....and I really, really need her to have it BEFORE May long weekend as I really, really wanted to go to the lake...selfish me!

Oh and I have Friday off....kids have a PD day so I can't work...too bad.

Well anyhow....

Hope everyone is doing well.!

Saturday...

I have a few mins so I thought that I would update a little.

Friday, I was utterly tired. I crawled into bed at 9:30pm and was fast asleep by 11pm. At 10pm I watch Cops everynight now then Beach Patrol after it...then the 1st few mins of the news...Kenendy got into bed with me. Fabe was at the neighbors garage celebrating his last day of Shaw...and no more working weekends...he got in late. He moved Kennedy into her own bed, Mack is gone for a sleepover (again). I slept in only until 9am. I cleaned the mainfloor, mopped, etc laundry...blah blah blah. But I knew that I should get it done before the day turned nice so I could be outside...

I went out about noon..picked up Mack from sleepover and took him downtown to a birthday party...drove back home. Put grass seed on the bad spots in the yard...watered it...etc. Then Fabe went down and picked up Mack...who made plans for another sleepover...Fabe dropped him off. Kennedy has been outside the WHOLE day as well. They dragged out the blow up trampoline bouncy thing and they have been playing on that and the trampoline. I ran out at 6pm to pick up Macks soccer jersey from his coach, who was VERY disorganized...so I offered my services to him (lol!) and said that I will take on arranging practices and calling and emailing people AKA "team manager" but I call myself a 'helper'. So I set up practice dates of Mondays at the field near my house (of course) because thats what happens when you are a VOLUNTEER. I followed him to his house (which is near my house) and got the team names and so on. I am going to photocopy stuff on Monday (at work) and organize a binder for him and I. Then I came home...went for a 50 mins walk (again)...and now the neighbors are waiting for us well Fabe to BBQ some steaks to go with their beer. Its gonna be a party around her tongiht...yeah! I told Kennedy we will have a fire...and roast marshmallows.

So busy...so now we have soccer Monday and tutor, Tuesday soccer for both kids, Wed nights is Weight Watchers, Thursdays soccer for both kids...then Friday is nothing...thankfully. I'm trying to keep my weekends open and get some lake time in..my mom is there this weeeknd and said it is beautiful there...I wish I was there.

Weight Watchers is going really good, I lost another 2.6 so I am down over 6 pds in 2 weeks :o) Today I ate well...but I am going to use some of my flex points tongiht and have a drink. Plus I have been walking everynight and not using my activity points so I'm sure its okay...I weigh in 1 day earlier this week as I had to switch over from Thursday (soccer) to Wed's. As long as I loose something, then I am okay.

Work is crazy. Some changes going on...but good ones :o)

Can't wait until the end of June...pure summer fun with the kids...I can't wait to spend the WHOLE summer with them :o)

Anyhow, better go...everyone is outside...and I look snobby sitting in.

No longer a "Shaw guy"

Fabe is done with Shaw now. On his exit interview they offered him another position, Friday...his last day..a little too late. But they did say he has a few weeks to think about it. On our journey it is good to have a back up plan.

Happily, he is done working weekends :o)

I'm just thrilled....

Tara

Another 'sorry'

Sorry for not updating. Things are just busier and busier..its really crazy now.

Anyhow, things are going really good. Soccer is starting for the kids next week...that will occupy Tues and Thurs nights and then weekend practicies. Let the stress begin...

Tomorrow is Fabes last day as a Shaw employee. I can't believe it. He heads to Calgary Sunday night for a week then home for the weekend then back to Calgary again...crazzzzy. Its going to be weird without him...I won't like it. I already told the kids they can sleep with me in our bed...both of them. I don't like staying alone at all...even with the kids there and not him...its going to be weird. I don't know how people can have husbands who work out of town, I am not one of those people at all. Due to a traumatic experience...in a house in the middle of the night.

Work is okay. Today I am off at noon as Mack has a Spring concert today at 1pm that I need to go to. It will be nice to be gone early...then tomorrow I won't be in until noon (?) as I am going with Amanda to her ultrasound...but I only work until 3:30pm anyhow. We were going to go to the lake, but not sure with Fabe leaving for Calgary. Mack has a b-day party on Saturday. Then Sunday he will leave. Next week will be interesting running to and from soccer for both kids on the same nights. Then Rikki will be over Wed night as my mom is going to the grad for my sister for her Masters and her grad is in Nova Scotia. So Rikki will be with us for the weekend too. Hopefully Amanda won't go into labor while mom is away as Amanda is really counting on me being there...

Well anyhow...I better run...

Tara

Update...

Sorry its been such a long time. Life has been super busy this past week. And I have actually typed up a few times to update and then Kennedy comes on here and instead of saving it, she goes to another page. So yeah...

Basically,
the lady that was talking about me, never showed up to work on Monday. It was a blessing because our best old staff came back. She was super awesome but she is only here for the summer. But hey, thats better then nothing. She worked in the exact same room where we had an opening. Perfect!

Fabe quit his job with Shaw. Found himself another position, same pay. No evenings or weekends. How can we loose out from that? He is done May 2nd with Shaw...after 8 years of working there.

I can't wait until the end of June...

Today is Kennedy's birthday and she is now 8 years old. We are heading to a hotel for a party for her, with a pool today. She has close to 20 kids coming.

I lost 4.2 pounds this week and still going strong. Hoping for a nice loss again. I can feel my tummy going down already :o) Always a good thing!

I have been walking 30 mins a day when possible...and I actually 'crave' going for a walk now...yeah!

I love the sunny weather that is forcasted...

Kennedy is having a Hannah Montanna theme party. I bought a ton of stuff off Ebay for her decorations.

Hmmmm, we are looking very forward to weekends with Fabe and evenings...we have NEVER had it. Its going to be such a big change. The only 'poopy' thing is he has to go out of town (Calgary) for training for 2 weeks, home on the weekends. Its crappy because it falls in the same time that Amanda is due...oh oh!

Amanda is due in 3 weeks now. She is on her way over here so I will ask her for another pic. She goes Friday for another ultrasound as the baby is still really little and she is measuring little still..but she is gaining weight. She goes weekly to her appts now...pretty soon!

Mack hasn't had anything written in his agenda all week (lol) normally its "Past Due in Math", etc. He DOES the homework but lacks the skills of bringing them back to hand it...or leaves it in his backpack...silly really.

And yeah, thats about it.

I better go as we are leaving in just over an hour now...

Have a great weekend!

Tara

ugh.

Its been a hard week for me. First of all, I started WW on Monday but I actually join tonight with a group of ladies...I am really motivated again and anytime I am thinking about cheating I tell myself "I am in control"...thats all I lack. Is self control. Its not like I am a huge eater or eat, eat, eat but I do eat the wrong things when I do eat. It takes some planning and being prepared for situations. Anyhow, I just really wanna do this..(again).

Tuesday, I had a mental breakdown. I overhead 2 staff bashing me...and I confronted them about it...I didn't appreciate it at all. I was really hurt as this is a staff who I have done nothing but advocate for her. I mean, I really have pushed for stuff for her (sick days, mental health days, etc) I was just shocked...hurt. I left work in tears and broke down in my car...then realized that I left my purse in the centre (lol) and had to go back in. I'm not a crier..but I do get hurt feelings especially when I have done nothing but invest tears, blood and sweat into the centre. And to hear how she talked about me, was a real shocker. I told her to talk about me, bitch about me...but just remember what I have done for her...I was So so so upset...I let work early...Then Wednesday, Kennedy had an appt and I didn't want to go to work in the morning for only a few hours...so I told them that I wouldn't be in...I had a nice day off. Her appt was super good. She had a test Pulm Lung Function test done and what the do is get her to breathe fast into the machines and stuff and go from there...then they give them ventolin and see if it improves but the R.T said that because her lungs are already in such good shape (yeah!) there was no difference in the output...he said normally developing lungs for an 8 year old child...wowzers! But she said that she has been having issues with her breathing being tight in gym class and outside runing around...again, I think it is her asthma. Her puffer is low at school so I will be sending new ones there. For pulmacourt she got a turbo inhaler. Its soooo nice not doing the nebulizer every time. The inhalhers have been so much easier and better :o)

Today, I am leaving at 2:30pm. I have a roast and potatoes and veggies all ready to go. I just have to put it in the oven. Love that. I love Thursdays when its early days! Also, Kennedys new Catholic School next year will be getting out at noon on Thursdays so I might just not even bother working Thursdays in the fall.

I keep dreaming about the fun in summer with the kids. I just can't wait! Only 2.5 months left of working...yeah!!!!

Tonight I will weigh in..how depressing is that...I always look back at my old WW book and wow...did I get my wieght down fast...and low...I would be sooo happy to go back to that weight...and pull the tote of small clothes out again...and put the fat ones away (again!)

I have been walking every night too. It has been helping me...when I get stressed out or 'down' I just make sure to get out and walk....makes a world of difference...

Well I better go...only 25mins more of work!!!!

Tara

Monday,.

It was H-A-R-D for me to wake up today. After all of the sun and beautiful weekend weather. Ugh. Mack wasn't feeling well at school so fabe (who is off) went and got him. Today I bought a bunch of Hannah Montanna Stuff for Kennedy for her b-day party which is at the end of the month. She will be 8 years old! Just crazy! I bought alot of stuff...plates, napkins, cupcake stakes, compact mirrors for loot bags, balloons, banners, etc...pretty cool stuff. And really, where her party is at it will be like 100.00 then plus the stuff maybe 200.00 so that not bad. I owe her good as the one year she had gallbladder surgery she didn't have a party. Anyhow, its all such cute things and its not often that she is 'into' things.

Anyhow...work is boring. I am wearing flip flops and capris thinking it was going to be NICE out...now I look really, really dumb.

Today I started eating and couting ww points. There is a small group of us joining on Thursday (again). But I really need to loose some weight before summer. My neighbor lost 35 pds and she looks great! She looks soooo tiny now...and she still said she has 30 more to go...but still...what a difference. Even when I lost it, I was in pretty small pants...those are ALL in tubs in the basement now...its nice to know there are there when I can get back into them. Even Capris that I bought last year, in April for Vegas...they were nice size from Costco and I can't imagine getting into them now...I am wearing the capris from the summer last year...big sizes :o( But I am inspired and I know one person who I am joining with will be of great inspirtation because she did super good on it last time...but stopped to have a baby. We are going to go shopping afterwards too. Hopefully I will have as good as luck as last time and drop 30 pds in 3 months...it would be great....the summer is a little easier and especially if I am not working...I can walk alot and gets lots of fruits in. When it is nice out and I am busy, I tend to not eat so bad...but I do drink a little more in the summer (coolers, etc)...

Anyhow, better work.

Tara

Sunday...

Last night I totally slept like crap. I woke up at 2am. Dog barking, going crazy. Fabe got out of bed to go look. Weird and I hate when Bandit does that. Then, I woke up at 4am..feeling kinda sick to my stomach. Then, 6:37am woke up. Fabe woke up. Then at 7:30am woke up to him getting ready. Bad sleep. Ugh. But I feel okay. I am all showered and house is clean so life is good. Fabe went and picked up Mack from Nicks house at 9am. Came back, Mack ate breakfast. I packed up their lunches for quadding today and put it into a cooler. I made some muffins for them to take along. They left. Kennedy was watching tv in Mack bed. I enjoyed a muffin and the newspaper. Kennedy's friend Kaylie came over at 11am. She is here until 4pm. They are outside skipping right now. I told them I will take them to McD's for lunch and to play at the playland. I'm hoping the sun comes out soon. I was talking to my friend Ronda on the phone last night, we were talking about how great the days feel when its sunny out. It makes a world of difference. I'm happy that I shovelled the snow yesturday as its almost all gone in the back yard...yeah!!!!!

Not much else planned today...laundry while at home. Then McD's then we will wait for Kaylie to leave and then go buy the groceries for the week.

The week is pretty good. It looks like Fabe is going to take the other job...it will be SO weird having him home by supper every night...no excuse for me not to take huge long walks now...also weekends off....its going to be great!!!! He's nervous. He will be talking/meeting with the office manager of the business who did the interview and confirm some details and decide tomorrow...scary! Its a totally new job for him (a trade) but same money (or more!) and less working time...why not?

I found a trailer that I am interested in...hoping it turns out to be nice. Hoping to get ours this weekend and bring it home...get it spring cleaned and sell it :o( I'm gonna miss it. If only it had ONE more bed...

Staff meeting tomorrow night...its going to be a long long day...

But the rest of the week is not much else planned.

Better run along!

Tara

Beautiful Day!

Today was a great day, in terms of weather. Well, because the weather was so nice...I had a great day. Its just a cycle.

One day, I will get some pics up here. Right now my camera is also mixed with TONS of daycare pics so I don't want to download them ALL on here...

Anyhow, today I slept in until about 10am. Amanda phoned me and woke me up. Her ultrasound went well, baby is still a girl. Head down. Thats all they told her. She sees her dr. on Wednesday so we will see from there. I can't go, which is too bad as I think that someone should go to see what they say about the size of babe. But kennedy has a CF appt that I CAN NOT cancel.

Mom came and got Kennedy and took her to Chuckie Cheese's for a while. While they were gone (Mack still at his sleepover) I decided to go in the backyard...ugh. Picked up most of the poop again...2nd Safeway grocery bag FULL of crap (lovely!)Then I picked up garbage and a broken candle holder, etc...just tidied up and put away the snowboards and sleds that were thrown back there. We still had ice and snow back there so I shovelled that up to the dry parts of the yard. Then all of the sudden (literally!) the sun came shining out. It was lovely!!!!!! So it melted the shovelled snow...there is only a tiny patch now back there and with tomorrow's weather hopefully it will be ALL gone!!!!! I laid on the trampoline absorbing the sun/heat and talked on the phone with my sister for like 45mins. Bandit was curled up on there with me. It was JUST like summer....

Then I went around front, where my neighbor Rachel was sitting watching her girls playing. So she pulled up a chair on my driveway and we chatted for a long while..Kennedy came home. Her daughter, Mackenzie and Kennedy are only 1 year apart. They played together the WHOLE day! Rachel and I chatted the WHOLE day together too. Then, our friends (neighbors) James and Tammy came over...for a few hours. We stayed out from about 1pm-8:30pm. It was great! I just love my neighborhood somedays!!!!!

I order chineese food for us. I just couldn't sit inside and cook today...I just wanted to enjoy every second of our sunny day! Mack called and asked to sleep over again.

Fabe came home. James and Fabe are taking the boys quadding for the day to Bruiderheim. Kennedy has her friend from school coming over for a few hours tomorrow. She is excited about that, she passed on going quadding.

I just packed them lunches and snacks for their quad trip. Fabe and James are out loading up the quads onto the trailers and strapping them down.

After Kennedy's friend leaves, we will go to Sobeys and get some food for the week. Fabe is off Monday and Tuesday then works Wednesday and Thursday then he is off for a week. I will be leaving him a 'to do' note (haha) like "take down the Christmas lights!" and "clean the garage" all of the stuff that he complains that he never has a chance to do! Next weekend we may go to the lake and get the trailer...so we'll see.

Anyhow, I better go.

Oh yeah, and I am lobster red!!! I have a fricking SUN BURN!!! YEAHHHHH SUMMER!!!!!

Tara

Here I sit.

I'm thinking about that little girl at my daycare. After speaking to my sister (she is a VP at an elm school) she was telling me some cases. And I just hurt for these children. Which I guess is why I can't work that field anymore. It was too 'at home'. Too hurtful. I dwell on things. I really, really do. Sometimes I wish that I was cold and didn't care about stuff. I wish that I didn't care that children get treated like crap, daily from their own parents who brought them into this life. I wish that I didn't care about the animals who get abused, daily. I just wish that for one day, I didn't care about people/things. Honestly. It sounds horrible. But I take stuff with me. I think and think about it. How they must be feeling. How sad they must be. How horrible their lives are. Etc. Etc. Etc.

Anyhow, I can't change the fact that I do care. I just want to rescue those who are being mistreated...it just is so sad that this happens. Such beautiful children out there...and animals...

*sigh* well...hopefully that helps getting it out and I can stop thinking about her...

Tara

So happy its Friday.

This week just seemed soooooo long. I'm so very happy that it is now over. My boss is back from Mexico now so I don't have to be so worried about work. This week we got so much done at work. I bought a drill and we fixed the gate, we hung all of the hooks in the cubbies. Plus we painted the toddler and preschool rooms gate and the preschool room decoated theirs and its just beautiful. The daycare is finally starting to look 'nice'. It was such a dive when I started there 2 years ago. Since then we have replaced the floor (UGLY old carpets!) with nice laminate....we have gotten rid of SO much junk and old toys. The hallway was CLUTTERED with junk and old tables and stuff before...now its nice and clean...it just looks so much better. The only thing that I hate is the old ugly carpet in the hallway...which we have to ask the OSC (out of school care owners) to split the cost and do laminate too. It would be so nice then. The todders room at my daycare is the nicest room...then the kindergarten room then the preschool room. The preschool room staff are working hard...but for some reason theirs just seems darker and smaller...but its the exact same layout and windows as the other rooms. Who knows...but I do love the changes...

What else?

Kennedy and Mack are serving their 6 detentions...and so is Tyler...the other kid involved...so hahah to his mom....

And, Rikki is here for the night. Mack is gone for a sleepover to his friends...so just Kennedy and Rikki and me tonight.

Ummmm, Fabe has a job opportunity...and I think that he is going to take it..its a trade position. He has been offered it. Same pay...company truck, tools and expenses. No weekends! And home at a decent time...so why not???? He is going to talk to the lady on Monday and decide then.

Vegas. Well our deal that we were going to go on is gone now...its still not much more but I don't know. He is going to keep his holidays....he has a week off. So if we are at home, then we will go to the lake.

Thursday night I am joining Weight Watchers again. With a few ppl off LP. Anyone else wanna join us?!?!?! I HAVE got to get on track...I would like to drop 20 pds by summer...and now I can walk long walks again with the nice weather.

Tonight I am going to clean the house so I have the weekend free.

Today I wore capris to work and sandals....it was great!!!!

Hmmmmmmm, I had a dream last night that Bandit was hit by a semi...I woke up soooo sad. In my dream, I took him to the vet. It was 1100.00 to get him seen. When I went to visit him he was doing the doggy paddle in a physio-therapy pool...they said "we have great news...he is fully recovered from being hit" and I was soo happy....then they said "but did you know he is full of cancer???" it was horrible. And I decided to take time off work to spend everyday with him until he was going to die...I didn't get that far...but I just felt sad all day thinking about it...

Thankfully it was JUST a dream.

Well anyhow...better get cleaning!

Tara

Ugh!

Sooooooo tired!

Today was a brutal.

1 staff down. Really, one of the most important staff as she works 12-6pm. She closes the daycare so if she isn't there, then someone has to stay longer. Acutally ALL of the staff have to stay longer. It just screws it ALL up..like today it did.

Anyhow, I got home waaaay later then I was suppose too. But I wanted to make sure the staff got home first...as they are the ones who work way harder then I during the day...so I got off at 5pm. Stopped and got McD's for the kids, as Mack has his tutor Thursdays at 6pm. Then I had to get gas, then money to pay the tutor so I got home at 5:45pm and she was already there!!!!! She's done now...ugh. Busy!

The house is a total mess! Thank God the weekend but if its nice out then I am sure the heck not gonna wanna clean all weekend...which I WILL not be doing...so I will try to get some of the cleaning done tongiht and tomorrow night...

Today I bought grass seed and potting soil to start the repairing of the dog pee spots...

At work, I bought a drill and fixed the gate which has been broken forever in the preschool room...thats done now...and I even put a fresh coat of green on it...done...

We are thinking about escaping the city (lol, made you think about Jane!???!) and hitting Vegas next week...we'll see.

Have you ever seen a child who actually made your heart hurt? Well thats what happened today...there is a little girl at our centre. She comes from a very, very poor home. She is usually pretty dirty. Her lunch today was a mayo and bread mixture....that she half ate while away at school...then it was tossed into her lunch kit. she had a pure black banana (cut in half) for snack. Thankfully I checked her lunch (to see if anything needed to be heated up) and I found that...so I made her a lunch and made sure she got a good snack....I look at her and I see a very hurting child...she breaks my heart...we wash her jacket every week and hang it to dry outside...not only is there a smell to it...its suppose to be pink but its actually grey/brown...from being so dirty. I thought about her again while doing Kennedys laundry. Here my child, 2 years older...has so many clothes and this little girl at my work...comes in wearing dirty, dirty clothes...she *never* looks like a pretty little girl that I know she is...she breaks my heart...

To make me feel better, and hopefully her...I'm going through Kennedy's clothing. Which I have done recently...and gave to a single mom friend...but this time I won't have much to give to her...but I'm hoping to find a few things...even if they haven't outgrown Kennedy we will give them. My child has a closet full of new and beautiful clothing...this little girl has only dirty and unfitting clothing (either waaaaay to big, falling down...or very very short pants!). She is a happy little girl...a beautiful smile...

Anyhow...

Tara

Busy busy busy...

The last few days have been really busy. I don't even know where the time has gone. Crazy!

Monday-I worked. I don't know how I got through it as a staff (who closes the daycare!) was sick. So we did it though! Tuesday, I had an appt at the bank at 9:30 with Fabe...again, ALL the way to the north side. We did that. Then I got to work at 11:30am and worked until 5. I was kinda annoyed when I got home, there was a letter from our neighbors mom. He and Kennedy have lots of issues and don't get along to well. Kennedy doens't take to it lightly when he teases her (about specific stuff-her hair, called her a nigger before, etc) Anyhow...he hit her on the bus yesturday...well actually he pushed her head into the seat and held her. She hit him, but Mack (who shouldn't have gotten into it) pushed him into the seat and he cried. He is in grade 4 Mack grade 6 but Kennedy grade 2. Anyhow, the bus driver talked to them. Said the same as I, Mack shouldn't have gotten into it but had Tyler not did it first to Kennedy it wouldn't have happened at all. Anyhow, a note from Tylers mom when I got home. I called her, she was okay but mad. And her dh was in the background 'blah blah blah'...didn't help. Anyhow. So I told her I will deal with it at home (which I did, I got mad at them and then I sent them to bed 1/2 hour early each). But she continued that Mack is 2 years old then Tyler, he shouldn't have done it. He's stronger, etc. But Tyler is also 2 years older then Kennedy....and stronger then her....same thing! Anyhow, she said that she is going to call the principal...which means they will all get 6 Dt's so whatever...whatever....whatever...

Anyhow. I'm at work right now. Its pretty good so far. We have had an awful sewer smell in here...thankfully its not us....even the health inspector confirmed it but still its gross! I have bought every possible air freshner. Right now, I have a candle burning...its called Glazed Pears and its soooooo yummy! Smells so good. We aren't actually suppose to have a candle burning in the centre but oh well...parents and everyone was complaining about the smell so whatever.

We are forsure buying a trailer this year. But we have decided to save some money and buy like a 2003-2007 instead of brand new...at least thats what we think today (lol!) So our little trailer will be for sale...if you know of anyone...it will be undr 5000 forsure! And last summer I did a 'pimp this trailer' overhaul on it!!! Its pretty :o)

Well, I better work.

Blah.

Tara

I'm going to win the full house lottery house!!!

I bought 3 tickets today for the Full House Lottery...and don't bother buying any...because I just bought the winning ticket(s)....I will post pics of my new house in the summer!!! Stay tuned!

Tara

Alrighty..

All showered...gettin dressed...

I'm really going to do it...

Bye!

Sunday.

So today I will shower. (lol)

I am on the phone with my mom right now, 11:30am and they are just leaving Fort Mac...so they will be home around 5pm. So I better go have a shower and get my running around done. Yesturday I napped for 2.5 hours, I woke up at almost 11am yesturday then cleaned and then was asleep at 3pm again...until 5pm. Then, went to bed at 1am. Woke up today at 9:30am...so needless to say I have gotten LOTS of sleep this weekend. Which I *so* needed...

Anyhow, now I am just going to have a shower...go to Sobeys and get the food for the week...prepare lunches and think about suppers for the week...

Well I better go get it all done...
Tara

Even Lazier then before...

Ahhhh, I feel sooooo refreshed!
I just had a 2.5 hour nap!!!

Loooooooovely!

Tara

Saturday!

So, last night I spend hours at the Royal Alex with Amanda. She was cramping alot last night. They checked her cervix and its already shortening and babies head is down, they are worried that her body is getting ready for labor. She measures 29 weeks and she is almost 34 weeks (Tuesday she will be 34 weeks). So she is measuring really, really little. The doctors said they would be checking her for IGR (Interuterine Growth Restriction) so hopefully HER doctor looks for it...every nurse was like "oh my goodness, you are so tiny!". But anyhow...she goes for her other ultrasound on the 11th. I sure do hope that her dr looks for this. The nurse said measuring 2 weeks up or down is 'normal' but 4-41/2 weeks off isn't okay. But because she is a tiny person anyhow, I hope/am sure that everything is fine...

Anyhow. I got home to chineese food...(Fabe was working anyhow!) and we ate it in bed...then watched tv. Fabe got up bright and early for work...I slept in until 11am~~~~ Needless to say, to find SNOW!!!!!! Yuck!

Today I did laundry and am just tidying up...guess I *will* be cleaning afterall...I will work on my assignment tomorrow....and type it up at work next week.

Well, I will report back tomorrow...or later!

Tara

No More Snow!

Should I TELL the staff to stop the spring theme and go back to winter????

Gggggrrrrrr!!!!!

And, by the way Jane! At Dollarama they have fly swatters...with bees stuck to them...so I bought a whole bunch of them so that the staff can pick the bees off and add them to the rooms...they hung them from the ceiling and now they have bees hanging around the room...So we didn't forget the bees!!!!

Tara

Frrrrrrriday!

Love Fridays!

Today I went shopping for work and managed to spend 130.00 on Dollarama stuff....they are learning about Spring and their theme is Spring has Sprung! So I grabbed every possible butterfly and flower thing possible!

Still not sure what I am doing this weekend...

Today is my anniversary for marriage...how lovely!

Work is going by slowly now that I am back here...ugh. I should go finish my shopping!

Anyhow!

Later!

4 things!

Tagged from Jane...

Four jobs I have had in my life:

1. Home Visitor
2. Foster parent
3. Waitress at a strip club in the Cromdale!!!! (HONESTLY LMAO!!!!)
4. Movie theatre

I have lived:
1. Sylvan Lake
2. Spruce Grove
3. Leduc
4. Rollyview (lol)

Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Florida
2. Vegas
3. Oaklaholma (okay, Cuba... but I have been to Oaklaholma!)
4. California

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Mushroom soup meatballs
2. Rice Pudding
3. Butter Chicken
4. Spring rolls

Four friends or relatives I think will respond first: (And I will be over to check and threaten!!!! lol)
1. Monica
2. Susan
3. Dad
4. Amanda

(sending this via email too!)

Good Sleep!

Last night I finally slept good.

I was talking to Amanda for a while, she had an appt yesturday. She is now at 115 pounds! Good job Amanda! She started off at 91 pounds so she is gaining...her measurements are very little though. So she is going back for another ultrasound next week as the doctor wants to ensure that the baby is growing. Must be, if she is gaining like crazy now...(5 pounds in 2 weeks!) I think that she is just going to have a small baby and thats that. She is a very little person herself so to me, it only makes sense. But its good that her doctor is on top of things...every Tuesday she is 1 more week pregnant. So yesturday she was 33 weeks! Crazy! Why does it feel that her pregnancy has gone by faster then any of mine??????

Anyhow!

I'm going to be calling the kids down for breakfast. Then we will leave at 8am. Spring break is really a break for parents too. Normally at this time we're madly rushing to get everything done...and leaving in like 10 mins from now, instead we are leaving in 45 mins...feels pretty good. Next week, my weeks of additional children doesn't stop. My neighbors (James and Tammy) are gone to the Dominican for a week. Every morning I will be taking their son, Austin to school with my children as he attends the same one...since they don't have a way to get him there...so they asked me. When Tammy goes out of town for work, (often) I take him as James has to work at 5:30am!

Well, I better go...eat and read the paper!

Have a great day!

Tara

Wed. night

Well I picked up the kids from daycamp. They had a great time swimming today. Got them and decided that I am not making supper. My house is clean, and I don't feel like making it. So, I took them to Mc D's. Darius and Kennedy played only a short while in the playland...then we left. We got home, they all went off their own places...then I decided that I should take Bandit to the dog park. So I hauled Kennedy and Darius with me. They loved running around and chasing the dogs. Bandit had a great time. We came home....the younger ones are playing Twister now. Mack just got on the computer and Rikki is outside on the scooter. I am washing the bedding again. I have a huge pile of clothes to put away...but I will save it for Friday night. Friday is our 1st anniversary...wow...fast year! Fabe is working...

I still haven't decided what I will do this weekend...who knows.

I'm so happy licensing went so good today...phew! We had an amazing report again...!!!!

Tomorrow I gotta go the newsletter for April...

The owner is out of the country now so we will be having a 'easy' week at the daycare...they love when I am totally in charge..but we do have some stuff to work on...

Well anyhow,

Tara

Wednesday....

oh my goodness, is it really ONLY Wednesday? This week seems to be taking FOREVER to get by....

Last night was really nice. It was just Kennedy and Darius and they played so well. They both showered and were in bed by 9pm. I think Darius might have been feeling alittle homesick, he didn't say anything but he asked to watch tv in bed for a little while...until he fell asleep. So I left it on for him. Then, he was watching tv for so long and didn't fall asleep. Then he asked fo the bathroom light to stay on...so we kept that on all night for him. They both slept well. Kennedy was pretty cranky yesturday so I am very happy that she had a good night's rest. They got ready really, really easy and we met my mom (with the older 2) at the church for the daycamp. They are swimming today...(watch out Jane...!!!) so yeah. Tonight I am planning to wash the bedding again...(just in case...from bandit!) the house is clean. Not sure whats up for supper...hmmmmm....

Oh lovely..while I was in the midst of typing this....licensing came in (Child Care Licensing) and then 5 mins after the health inspector...anyhow...they weren't planning to be here the same day (It would have been bad if it was for a complaint) anyhow it was good. He (health inspector) is gone and the licesning officer is still here....she is telling me that they are hiring 2 more licensing officers (I SO WANT THAT JOB!) so she will get the info for me....we'll see!!!!!

Well anyhow...gotta go.

I have my assignment sprawled out and ready to work on it...but I will have to wait until after lunch...

Tara

Update...

Just cleaned the mainfloor...have the hockey game on! Go Oilers!!!!!!!

The kids went with my mom (Mack and Rikki)

Darius and Kennedy are playing the Wii Sports.

Kennedy had a shower...

Darius is next to go in...

Hopefully bed early. Kennedy was really cranky today...lovely.

Have some laundry to do...fun.

Well anyhow....

Later, oh yeah and American Idol tongiht!!! Yipppeeee!!!