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Sunday, December 24, 2006


Today I got a beautiful engagement ring!!!! I will post all about it later, but in the meantime...we're offically engaged! 16 years later!!!


Saturday, December 23, 2006

Feeling better!

Today, I woke up feeling waaaay better. Actually, I was up at 8:30am on my own. Read the paper and then started laundry. And, since I was already down in the basement I cleaned it up for my guests to arrive. Changed the bedding in the spare room and cleaned the whole basement. Fabe woke up and helped me out too. Then, we headed upstairs (mainfloor I did last night!) and he took on our bathroom and I did the kids bathroom. Done. The kids are cleaning their rooms, ours is done. We just have the bonus room to tidy up and we are DONE! Then, we have to head out to get a HUGE grocery shop. So much to do. But we are almost done. I found out today that my sisters nanny, Annie is coming as well. So, I will put her in the spare room in the basement then my sister and her hubby and their oldest will have the family room. And, the baby can be in Kennedys room (as she sleeps with Mack anyhow). Christmas eve my mom and Amanda are sleeping over too! Thankfully, she can sleep in Kennedys bed. Amanda on Macks floor and my two kids in Macks double bed. SO many ppl!!!! But boxing day, we will get up and head to Jasper where we will ALL have our own suites!!! I can't wait!

Well, I should keep going. Shopping is going to be CrAzY!


Friday, December 22, 2006

ugh (again)

I so don't feel well. And the worst part is today I HAVE to go to work for a while. I have some crap to bring into work. And I will have to leave the Christmas party that I had planned :( But my bones are killing me. Last night, I fell asleep at 8pm. Fabe put the kids to bed and I got up and kissed them to sleep at 9pm. Then I slept again, utnil about midnight when Fabe came to bed. By this time, I had on a sweater, socks and pants. I was FREEZING but had a fever. He got me some water and we talked for a while then I fell back to sleep about 1am and was up every hour on the hour until the alarm went off at 6am. Its now 8:15 am and I just got dressed and am getting ready to take the kids to school and I have to go to Sobeys first thing. I just want to get back into bed and sleep or something. I can't believe I feel this horrible. Anyhow, I gotta go.


Thursday, December 21, 2006


I am NOT feeling well today. I woke up with a sore neck, body and just very extremely tired. I just don't feel well. But I had to work. I went in only until 12 and then went to my WW meeting. AND, OMG!!!! I LOST 1.4 pounds this week! I have NO clue how, but I did! Total down is 27.2! Wow hey! After that, I came home. Got undressed and got into bed and slept for an hour. Fabe picked up the kids for me. The house is a utter mess. There is SO much to do. But I just can't. I am taking it totally easy tonight, going to bed early and having a good sleep. Tomorrow is So busy! But my last day of making lunches and work/school for a good week or two. I will do what I need to do tomorrow night and Saturday. The kids got their shopping done. They each take 20.00 and go to Dollarama and pick out anything they want. Its soooo funny from their prespective what they think that we will like. So funny ;) Came home. Fabe is making supper. Its 6:30 and about 8pm I will take some medicine to make me sleep (Tylenol night time cold!!!) and be done with today. My head hurts, my neck...my back. Ugh. I have eaten nothing today!!! I ate 5 points all day so far when I should be eating 24-26! I just can't. Thank GOD tomorrow is Friday but its going to be very busy! But once its done...I will be happy! Cookies for Kennedys class, cupcakes for daycare..etc..etc...gifts for my staff...ugh.



Wednesday, December 20, 2006



I have been so super busy! I have worked until 5:30pm both Monday and Tuesday nights. Today, it was so nice leaving at my normal time. It was busy! We are preparing for our Christmas party at work for the kids on Friday. Then, today was a staff potluck and Shaw was there installing the internet. Just hectic! I am sooooo looking forward to Friday :) Can't wait! Then NO work for a week!!! Jasper!!! My nephews!!! So much to look forward too!

I just finsihed wrapping ALL of the gifts! Wow, I had forgotten all of the stuff that I bought them...tons! Waaaay too much. And every year, I vow to not be so much. Tonight Kennedy said "well I can give some gifts away to children who don't get much gifts" and I thought...awwww, how sweet. Then she continued, "once I open them all and know the onces that I do not want them I will give them to you to give away" *lol* Now, I couldn't stop laughing. She said "what? There are going to be some that I dont' want!!!" And I said, "OR, you could TELL me what ones you dont like and I will RETURN them!!!" *lol* So funny!

So tonight I took of Bandits cone. Ahhhh, feels so much better not getting jammed in the back of the foot with it anymore! Yeah!

I was thinking of all of the stuff in the new year. I have so much to do. *sigh* First off, I NEED to book our house for Flordia!!! Its a beautiful huge house with its own pool, but I have to book soon before it gets booked! I can't wait to go and see Fabe's family :)

Well I feel so much better getting the gifts done. They consumed the spare room, which I need to get ready for my sister. So now I can start the cleaning process. Ugh. Really, only 2 more nights to get it ALL done. But again, THANK GOD the presents are wrapped. I have a few more things to get. About 3 more gifts. But I am done-done-done. Fabe has been shopping too. A big secret. Saving flyers and everything. Wow. I am impressed.

Well, the kids are in the shower. And I totallllllly need to just lay in bed and rest. What a busy few days!

And, I am SO not looking forward to tomorrow to weigh in. I KNOW that I have gained this week. The scale told me so. Oh well. January 1st isn't long away to start up again...I am not ready to stop and I am not worried about gaining a few pounds...actually I have planned for it so that I won't be disappointed!


Saturday, December 16, 2006

Some pics and an update!

Last night, the kids didn't want to go skiing as the snow was hard and it was raining a bit. So, we just hung out at home. Kennedy and I feel alseep about 10:30 in my bed. Mack was on the puter. I heard Fabe at 1:30am watching TV in the bonus room. I got up, told him to turn it down and seen Macks light still on! I told Fabe to put him to bed by 2am! But he came to bed right away and Mack went to sleep. Fabe carried Kennedy to her bed and we went to sleep. At 8am I was woken by Bandits cone! OUCH!!!! And my alarm was going to go off anyhow so I got up. I got the kids up and we started to get ready! I drove them downtown to my moms house, as they are delievering gifts today for S.A. I took my moms car and she has the van. I went to Sears at Southgate and bought myself a new Columbia winter coat! And then, thinking I should buy some new pants as one of the staff at my daycare told me I should really buy some new pants! My old ones are just HUUUGE so I took her advice! And Happily, I bought a regular size pants...in a smaller size :) Love that!!! And a few shirts! *lol* Went to Sobeys for some baking stuff. Came home, Took Bandit (and his cone) for a nice long walk. Got home, took off my wet-bottoms-pants (I hate that!) and baked in my panties and shirt (lol!) Cleaned the kitchen, tried on my new outfits! Wow, I love them all! Phoned Fabe about 100 times, asking when he will be home. I am bored. Updated my blog (check out the new pics) and its now (finally) 6:12pm and I will hop in the shower to get ready for my friend Lisa's Christmas Party! Fabe is out buying me some hairspray (at least it isn't Tampons this time !!!) and I will go make myself pretty!!! LMAO! We are going to be there for a few hours and I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow! Too bad Bandit can't fit in his kennel to sleep (where he prefers at night) oh well. Tomorrow, I need to clean this house up (again) and the kids rooms and wrap gifts....(putting that one off) then I am going to get the kids and we are off for supper at Amandas house! Only 1 more week of school and work and I am off for a long time :) Can't wait!!!!


Saturdays Baking!

Reece bars!!!

The little mini-cakes (read more about them below!)
Aren't they CUTE!!!!!
I love them!!!!
Peanut Butter-Choclate chip bars (well, stars!)

Yummy! So NOT good for WW!!!!

Today I am preparing to go to my friends Christmas party. But I had a few hours to kill and was really in the baking mood ( no FABE not THAT kind of baking!!!!) and so I pulled out some new recipes to try out! Plus, I bought those "fun shapes" tins things from Sobeys in shapes. I bought the star ones and OMG they are AWESOME!!!!!! In fact, I had 17 of them leftover so I made a cake batter and poured it in and it turned out awesome! They are on my white board of things to buy again! On Friday I will bring some to Kennedys party, Macks class and my work for a party! I am not sure what to make for everyone tho. But the cakes are such a great idea for kids to decorate their own..they are so cute!!!! All the baking is now in the freezer! Yeah, I feel like I actually got something accomplished off my 'to do' list!!!!!


Thats Kennedy in the pink set...
A closer shot..
Mack, super happy to be there!!

The first time skiing this year! I took the kids last weekend to get use to skiing again as they will ski in Jasper when we go there for Boxing Day. Mack did very well. Kennedy took more time to get use to it again. Mack goes up on the big hills and Kennedy stayed on the little hill.

Candy Cane Lane...

After the Christmas Party at Galaxy Land we took the kids to
Candy Cane Lane. They loved it. We have rented a horse and wagon on Christmas Eve to take us down the 'lane'...it will be lovely! We will bundle up and have hot choclate and just enjoy the evening with our family! I can't wait!!!

more GalaxyLand pics!

These things are so funny! I always laugh when I look back at the pics, especially the ones of Fabe!!! LMAO!!!!

Christmas Party at Galaxy Land!

Mack and Kenendy on the boat...(blah!)
Mack and I on the bumper cars!
Fabe and Kennedy on the bumper cars!
Kennedy on the swings!
Mack, just LOVES hanging with his little sis!
Can't you tell?

My children enjoying their night out! They always look so forward to Fabes Christmas party. We get the WHOLE park to ourselves. Which is SO nice, as there are no line ups. The ppl
who run the rides don't make you get off, they just ask "Do you wanna go again??" and the kids say "YEAH" and they run it again. I heard that the kids are allowed to each bring a g friend so we will do that next year, especially for Mack who gets kinda bored hanging out with Kennedy. We will just bring the family radios and he and his friend can go off. It was a great night out. We even ran into Wendy and Aaron there!

Okay, here are some pics!

My princess :)

So Kennedys dance show! Last Saturday! She looked so beautiful, as you can see! This is her
4th year of dance. She is getting pretty good at it. She has been dancing with some of the girls since she was 3 years old! I think it is pretty neat! Last year they had their first competition and they won gold. This year, they will have another one! I love going to the shows. I especially LOVE tap dancing, which is what Kennedy will presue as well. She is in Jazz and Tap. She was taking ballet too but they drop it for a few years, because of development.Isn't she sweet!!!!

Friday, December 15, 2006


WHY would someone settle for someone who has lied, betrayed, hurt their child and themself???????????? WHY???? Are they *really* THAT desperate for 'love'?????


Thursday, December 14, 2006


I lost .8!!!!

I have to REALLY smarten up tho!!!!

.8 is pure luck, after my bad weeks! I still lost 1 pound in 2 weeks but I can do waaaay more then that. Its soooooo super hard this time of the year!

I will try hard still, but really really need to get to Jan. to get away from the foods that surround me!!!


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

A boring "word" update!!!!

Sorry, no pics to post today. Although I have like 75 again to download. But anyhow. Heres an update!

Well last Thursday I lost .8 pounds (not that much!!) but I was very happy as it brought me to 25 total. Needless to say, I was/am VERY happy! Friday, I worked. We have a horrible virus going around our daycare and SO many of the children were gone (at least 1/2 the centre) so the staff sterilized all of the toys and washed the dress up clothes, etc. Friday night I cleaned. Like, CLEANED the house (well the the mainfloor) it was horrible from the Xmas stuff (ugh~) Saturday, we woke up and the kids showered/bathed. I got Kennedy ready for her dance show. She looked beautiful in her outfit..it was so pretty :) My mom came here and we all went to the theatre. After the dance show, we went to Toyota as my mom wants to trade in her HOT convertable :( and buy an SUV. Waaah!!!! But no luck as the new Rav-4's aren't out there until spring. Phew! Then we came home and relaxed. The children counted down until 6:45pm and we headed to the west end for Fabe's staff childrens Christmas party at Galazyland. Its soooo nice as we have the WHOLE galaxyland to ourselves. The kids had a great time, and I had a BAD night for eating :(

Sunday, we went to the ski hill for a few hours. Finally picked up their seasons passes. Mack did very well, Kennedy on the otherhand needs more time to 'remember' how to ski *lol* she fell only once but still. Then we came home and Mack had to write out first first draft for his social assignment. And then I cleaned the upstairs. Couldn't do laundry as the guys were here, working on the basement. They are pretty much done!

Monday, work. And omg!!!! like *NO* kids there! And 3 staff (from the same room) all called in sick!!!! Talked to Capital Health, they said its hit all of the schools and just told us to keep everything very clean and they need to wash their hands. Monday night, Fabe was home early and I went to B.P's with a bunch of ladies and Mel, whose precious baby boy left us last week :(
I (again) ate HORRIBLE!!!

Tuesday, work.. 2 staff down still. And, about 18 kids out of 54 kids were there. Very bad! Worked until noon only went to Mack's Xmas concert with Fabe at 1pm. It was cute :) Then, I came home, ate lunch. Picked up the kids from school, went to Walmart (seen a little girl from my daycare who was VERY sick, mom was there getting her meds! She looked horrible and ended up puking from coughing so much!) got Mack's new glasses. Came home. Fabe bbq'd steaks and made supper. Ate. Dropped off Mack at school for the evening concert and did 30 mins on the treadmill and picked him up. Now we are going to get them to bed and off to bed ourselves...

I am DREADING weighing in on Thursday. It was a horrible week. But one week out of 3 months is okay :)


Thursday, December 07, 2006

Oh Christmas Tree....

The final product! The tree looks not very nice in the pics though! Oh well!

Mack helping to do the angel...which looked SO tiny so I added the Santa instead!
Kennedy trying to do the angel (with Fabe's help)
Now, together they try to do the angel..it was funny to watch them 'trying' so hard!
Just decorating...

We put a tree in our front entrance this year! We have a spacious entrance and thought it would be a nice way to have a real Christmas feeling. Plus, we have a tree in our family room upstairs so we did this this year. It looks very nice. Plus, with having my sister and her kids here for Christmas we want to only decorate what we have too, as we will have a toddler here getting into it all. And, I am *so* done with that stage...and I enjoy having nice things out again. But usually my house is totally decked out and pretty but this year will be the basics. Hey, my sister isn't even having a tree...so I am doing alright! Plus, we will only be here Sat, Sun and Monday then we are off to Jasper! So yeah :) Anyhow, the tree is up! Looks pretty! We just have to work on the other one now :rolleyes:

Santa puppy!

Bandit is wearing Mackenzie's first Christmas suit..isn't that cute? I thought it was SO funny! He HATED getting dressed up.
We took him on the weekend to get santa pics, are't we truely pathetic? I know!!!!

Ugh, the Christmas mess!

I hate hauling all of the decorations and everything from the storage up the stairs and everything. Setting everything up, and ugh.
Its just SUCH a mess! We did this on Monday night and my house still has crap everywhere. This weekend I will finish the decorating and I love when it is done but the first little while of setting up is horrible for me. I hate a mess, and disorganzied but yeah :) once it is done, I feel better. Better yet, once it is nicely tucked back into storage again...I feel better :S but yeah !

Love this pic!

Kieran blowing out his candles :) I took this and thought it was great shot...except for the shadowing but otherwise I love it :)

Chuckie Cheese...

Happy Birthday Kieran!!!! Thats him in the plaid blue shirt, with the big smile and his big brother in the red shirt....Kieran had a great time!
Kieran, the birthday boy :) He is now 4. I was there when he was born :)

Mack, pretending to not be having a good time (lol) I know he really was, he just doesn't think its cool anymore to LOOK like he is having fun (rolling eyes!)

Kennedy and another little girl from the party...They are 3 years apart, she (the other girl) was sooooo tiny! And it doens't help that Kennedy is SOOO tall :)

Went there for my friend's sons 4th birthday! Where I got into it with another mom (bitch!) but anyhow!

The kids had a great time there, as usual!


Kennedy LOVES the Floam commercial. Anyhow, she has begged me for some forever!!!! I was at a store last week and found some...and she LOVES it :) Its no mess! So

simple to clean up, not like playdough. Its great!

my handsome man :)

Doesn't he look great!

Funny thing is, that he spent longer then me getting ready for the party AND he spent 350.00 more then me on his suit :S

<-----isn't he handsome????


So I don't wanna BRAG or anything but guess what? At Fabe's Xmas party..I wore a cute black plain dress. Well, Fabe told me last night that a guy at his work said that I looked HOT!!!! OMG!!!!

Tara :)

25 pounds down today!!!!

<----------thank you very much, a size L from a regular clothing store!!!!!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

No time.

I have had ZERO time lately! None whatsoever! Things are just so busy and they don't seem like they are going to slow down anytime soon. Why am I on here then? Because, I worked all day (okay 6 hours!) but came home, rushed Kennedy to dance, came home, made supper, went and picked up Kennedy again from dance, had supper, cleaned the kitchen and finally I am up here. I have the treadmill to do, laundry and get the kids to bed at a normal time tonight! Yes, I am off tomorrow however I have to clean the van to sell it, tidy up the half-decorated for Christmas house, get the yard decorated, pick up something for my work from a person on my parenting site, go to Weight Watchers and so yeah :) Not much of a day off :( Friday is not as bad. But Saturday is. Oh yeah, and tomorrow night I have to pick up Kennedys dance costume from the studio. Saturday, will be rushing here and there. Kennedy has her Xmas show for dance, so I have to bath her and make her all pretty for that. Get her there for 12:30. Sit and (relax) and watch the show...then come home for a few mins and then we have Fabian's Christmas party for the kids at Galxyland. THEN, Sunday will be cleaning and get organized day. Next week is BRUTAL. Only night that I don't have 'something' is Monday. The other nights are Concerts for school, dance and Tae Kwon Do. YUCK! JANE, I KNOW why you homeschool !!!!!! We *should* try to get skiing in there one of these days as you know, we are going to Jasper in 2.5 weeks and well, they are suppose to be skiing there...so yeah! The week after will be busy getting ready for Christmas and everyone coming here....so ugh! I really love, but hate this time of year!!!

I am not expecting much for a weigh in tomorrow as I ate whatever Thurs, Sat and a bit over on Sunday...so yeah. I just don't want to gain, and I don't care if I loose.

Today, I was banned from my favorite parenting site...it was a rather upsetting experience for me as I had no clue why. After finding out, I was utterly amazed that I can get suspended for that reason. This is the SECOND time that I have been suspended...so I guess 3 times is the 'your out'...so we will see. I hate that I am not able to express my self and my ideas freely. I guess I resort back to reading only and speaking in the way as to not step on toes and walking on egg shells. And, did I mention this was a parenting site..??? I am back on now, but still kinda upset over it.

Well anyhow. Thats whats new with me.

IF I had more time, I would post some pics of me in my hot black dress for dh's Xmas party and some pics of him...but I don't have time....

sorry, off to the treadmill.


Tuesday, December 05, 2006

So sad :(

My thoughts and prayers are going out to Mel today :( Yesturday she found out that her precious baby boy that she has been carrying for 7 months, has passed :( Since I found out about it, I have been thinking about her non-stop. Its so sad. I just can't imagine. Today she went to the hospital to start the sad process of induction. She has to wait for labor to start. I just can't imagine an outcome like this. How bittersweet being at the hospital to deliver your baby, whom you won't be able to spend the rest of you life with.

Anyhow. Please say a prayer for Mel and her family...her little beautiful daughter doesn't even know whats going on but was as proud as ever when I seen her only last week (Thursday) and she told me she is having a 'brudder' (as mel calls it)


Thursday, November 30, 2006

Thank you very much...

24.2 pounds GONE :) Yup, you have read it right ladies....24.2 pounds!!!!

This week I lost 4.2 pounds which utterly amazes me as I only did the treadmill a few times, and NO aquasize due to the cold! Anyhow...I can't believe that I am ONLY 5.5 pounds away from 30 pounds lost! I can't believe it. I do believe that it will take a bit longer now as I have Xmas parties, and what not going on every weekend in Dec now...but as long as I don't gain and get off track...then I am okay.

So I am offically done shopping for the kids (went waaaaaaay over board again!!!) and got a few things for Fabe...done for my mom, Done for Amanda, Done for my sister, and almost done for my daddy oh and done for my nephew, Braeden. I still have to buy for BIL, Matthew, BIL'S stocking, some more for the kids stockings, and Neal...and something else for Fabe.

Today I shopped ALL day again...I love that! Then I picked up the kids, came home. Homework. Then, we went to the mall for their eye appts and Get Mack new glasses. Kennedy doesn't need glasses (yet) but more then likely will in the future for reading far distances (just like me and Mack). She so desperately wanted glasses... (lol). Then, we ate at the food court..ok I did too...lol. THEN, Kennedy played at the park while Mack and I sat and talked about stuff. So nice to have time to talk to him without Kennedy always 'right' there. Then, we got her and went to the Showcase store and I bought waaaaaaay to much there. Then, we came home.

The kids are LOVING the DVD Player in the Benz. They put their headphones on and I listen to my music and they love it.

Kennedy finally found FLOAM and so she is happily playing with that...and Mack just got on the computer for his half hour that he is allowed on every night.

Fabe just opened the garage door, and is home and I will go see him now

OH and I bought a DRESS a regular size dress today!!!! For his Xmas party!!!! I love this!!!


Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Omg! Its freeeeezing out! And can you believe....I can't get a starter installed in my new Benz???? BRRR!!!!! But, we did get the DVD installed in there...but I would MUCH rather a starter. I HAAAAATE being cold :(


Sunday, November 26, 2006

My weekend...

Its been a great, but EXPENSIVE weekend! I had only bought Xmas gifts for my mommy and my nephew Braeden. So, I bit the bullet and took full advantage of my mom taking the kids and did some serious shopping.

Friday- Our regular movie night. Garfield rented off PPV. Was sick but managed to stay up until 12am.

Saturday- Slept in until 10m. Had breaky. Tidied up a bit. The kids begged me to play the game of LIFE with them, so we played it for a few hours. Got them ready and we headed down to my moms house, dropped them off. I headed for Toys R Us and bought them some gifts!!! (500!) worth! YUCK! Came home, put them in the spare room. Fabe got home, we watched the news and I crashed at 11:30pm. Still not feeling the best.

Sunday- Today. Worke up, ate. Went to WalMart first. Bougth tons of stuff there (oh, had to treat myself too! A new purse, wallet, bra and shoes!) (400) then, to Dollarama for crap (30) then to Childrens Place to get Kennedy a Xmas outfit (yeah... 180 later!!!) then to Reitmans to find me an ourfit (no luck but some shirts!!!) and my sister a gift card (100) then met my sister and mom and the kids at Childrens Place (again) and still managed to spend more there (45) and then, Nike Outlet (nothing!) then home. Made a fat free ham and potatoes and salad for supper. Ate. The kids are getting bathed. I will tidy for a while and throw a load in the laundry. I have SOOOOO many gifts out of the way but still am not all the way done. I have to get the kids skiis too. But at least the majority is done. Now, since we are hosting Xmas here I have to focus on baking, painting the spare room, decorating and preparing for dinner stuff as I have never hosted Xmas. I am excited tho! Plus, the day after Xmas we head off to Jasper for a few days. So I don't want to over-do anything in case I have tons of leftovers.

Today I found about 3 of my family members pregnant! Its soooo weird! All of my little cousins are having babies!!!! I feel OLD! Considering I *may* want to join them (opps, did I say that outloud!?!?!) its so weird! My cousin Mellisa is due in April with her 1st babe. Then her younger brother, Derrick is preg. with their 2nd babe in June and then Dierdra is due with her 2nd in April, she had blood work come back that said that she has a 70% chance of having a Downs baby. They told her she could have a medical abortion, but she said NO way! Her mom (my aunt) died almost a year ago, her aunt a year before, her dad the year before and her other aunt the year before. EVERY year, she has lost someone. Its really sad. She only has her 1 aunt left and her twin sister to help her out. She is still young too. 24, I think. Anyhow.

So, Kennedy is in the bath playing with Dora. Mack on the computer. We did homework already. So, I am off to tidy and hang up all of her new clothes. Omg, I can't believe the prices at Childrens Place!!!! Everyone wonders why she has soooo much clothes but I am sorry, at that price...how can you NOT buy?

Anyhow. Off to work tomorrow. I have to find something to wear to Fabe's Xmas party on Saturday night. Then, a birthday party on Sunday at Chuckie Cheese's. We are busy now..for the next few weekends. Kenendy has a dance preformance on the 9th. They haven't gotten their costumes yet even!!!!

Tara :)

Thursday, November 23, 2006


I regret to inform you all that I am missing something that has belonged to me for many years. It was developed in part from my beautiful child, Kennedy. You see, when she was born it was a very stressful situation and because she was taken to the U of A by the NeoNatal Transport team when she was ready to be discharged to come home with me...istead she was whisked away to the U of A instead. I had no time to really heal and began living out of the hospital for the next few weeks. I ate every day at the caferteria and never got to breast feed my baby, but could pump. Many days of sitting in a rocking chair while she was on life support, waiting for 'something' to happen. I would go 10 hours without eating somedays and other days I wouldn't eat at all. When she woke up and we could hold her, I would sit rocking her all day wishing nothing would interupt this time...not even eating or hungry pangs. When she got out of the hospital, it brought along other stresses. Her diagnosis of Cystic Fibrosis and her extreme colic. I had no 'me' time. It was rough. In her first few years of life she was in the hospital at least 10 times for weeks at a time....I ate at the hospital. I NEVER had the chance to get rid of the weight that I gained with her...

However. Missing: 20 pounds!

I did it! I hit 20 pounds today!!!!!


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

oh gawd!

I am getting sick. Up all night with a sore throat-sick. Can't breathe through one side of the nose-sick. I hate to be a baby BUT my head has been killing all day! AND, I had to work until 5:30pm to see some parents and I worked from 9am with NO break!!! Ugh. I am *SO* not a person to work long hours...yuck!

Anyhow, I am getting the kids to bed early so I can go to sleep. Last night I couldn't understand WHY I was soooo tired but now I guess that I know.

Thank goodness I have Thursday and FRIDAY off :)


Sunday, November 19, 2006


See, told ya all that I would get it done :) It WAS a lot to do in one day, but its done and its just one of those things that feel soooo much better knowing it is done with now :) Anyhow!

Today was a lazy day! Last night, after we dropped of the 2 boys remaining from the party we went to Sobeys to return something...then Blockbuster to return a game that never worked. Then, we came back home. We rented "Stick it" on PPV and Mack, Kennedy and I cuddled on the couch and watched it. They were super tired and went to bed about 10pm. Fabe came home, we laid in bed for a while and listened to the police scanner (lol) and then went to sleep. I slept in until 9:15am this morning. Cleaned the mainfloor but couldn't do any laundy as the guys were finishing our trim in the basement. So I have TONS to do this week. Yuck!

Mack and I worked on his across Canada journey for Social. Did I mention I was in SHOCK after seeing his report card on Friday? Omg! Mack is a A/B student. This report card was seriously utterly horrible. The issue is that he has a homeroom teacher who sadly suffers from Parkinsons Disease. However, she only teaches them part time. They have LOTS of subs, and like 4other teachers that they have to juggle. They don't stay in one class and its VERY unstable. I did call the principal last week to express my concerns as I didn't feel that Mack was handling it well. Its hard for them! And with parents RSVP'ing for his party I had the chance to talk to them about it and they said that they feel that their children are suffering too :( The principal basically said it isnt ideal, however they have to honor her contract. Wow. So, surely his report card reflected this. And needless to say, I immediately called the school and demanded to meet with them. I will NOT see him go down hill after 4 years of perfect schooling. Grrr! Kennedys was fine. But Macks I was upset about. Anyhow, so he did about 1 hour of his assignment for Social. They both had a bath. And, I washed Kennedys bedding and put on the plastic sheet (allergies) and then she wanted to sleep with Mack. So, they are sound asleep. I am waiting for Fabe to get home...gonna throw another load in the wash and make popcorn for Desperate Housewives.

Did I say already, that I ate HORRIBLE this weekend? I am so MAD at myself. Thurs was bad. Friday was bad. Saturday was the WORST!!!! Today I ate well. But yeah. I am not expecting to much on Thursday at weigh in. But the thing is, that I am on track again. And NO where ready to stop...so I am not that worried. Would be nice to hit 20 finally but we'll see.

Monday is back to work. Aquasize two nights this week. And off Thursday and no school Friday so I am taking it off. We have a b-day party in Spruce Grove on Friday...then the kids are sleeping at my moms house Saturday night.

Not too busy of a week. Oh yeah, parent teacher confrences this week tho too..opps!

Tara :)

Saturday, November 18, 2006


Malik and Kennedy decorating some cookies...they are paying such good attention!

I felt like baking today...and the boy in the pic wanted to bake too! So Kennedy and I picked some recipes and we baked some lovely Peanutbutter Temptations and Whipped Shortbread cookies, told Malik that he can take some home for them too!!! He was happy about that!

Boys night!

Breakfast!!!! After a few boxes of cereal and left over hot dogs, they boys were finally full!
Bandit snuck away with the envelopes and made them into 1million little pieces!!!
Gift time!
More food!!!!
*lol* he looks totally impressed eh!
eating again....
Kennedy right in there with the boys!!!
A yucky cake from SOBEYS which was suppose to be WHITE cake was actually strawberry filled white cake...gross! Needless to say, 2 pieces went!

So Mack had his birthday party last night. We had 10 10-year old boys sleeping over! They got dropped off at 7pm...but we did take one home from school with us then 2 came about 6pm. It was pretty good night! We rented some games...and set up 3 game systems down in the basement. They had PS2, game cube and Xbox all playing. They did very well. They had hotdogs, cake, ice cream and tons of pop and chips. They stayed up until........6-6:30 AM!!!!And were up at about 8-9am. So yeah, they had like NO sleep! They are so fun at this age tho. They weren't annoying...they were super good and respectful...which is a HUGE thing for me!!! Most of them left this morning about 11am and right now as of 4pm I still have 2 of them here. But I made plans to drive them home later.