Hmmmmmmm

So today I went to the dr's and I had my first prenatal physical booked. The nurse told me not to worry about changing as the dr wanted to talk to me first. Weird, I thought. Then, she came in and told me that my bloodwork is very, very low which would indicate a weak pregnancy or a pregnancy that is not proceeding. She didn't give me a number, which I'm going to ask for this afternoon or tomorrow when she calls back. So I repeated my blood work today and she said she will call me. As she will have something to compare it too and that it should have gone up lots since my last blood work. BUT, she didn't do my physical or anything..she just talked to me and then told me that sometimes the body 'takes care of this naturally' or other times you might have to go for a D & C procedure to remove the tissue. But she will see about my blood test and go from there. About a week ago, I began to feel really good. I stopped taking the Diclectin and wasn't unusally exhausted anymore...I have been feeling super good. As well, my breasts are no longer tender. I was telling dh this last week that I didn't feel pregnant anymore which was weird as I was only close to 8 weeks pregnant...and usually the symptoms begin to peak 8-12 weeks. Now, I'm kinda annoyed that I told anyone...just Saturday I told my neighbors and stuff. Now I have to explain to everyone that I miscarried. My dr. talked to me like in fact I had, but she said the blood work will confirm it. Then we will wait. She asked about if we are going to try again...I told her no...and that I wanted to seek a perm. birth control.

So not really too sure, But I do honestly have a feeling that I did miscarry...I just 'feel' it. I haven't been crampy or anything else but she told me that once the body recognizes that its no longer a developing fetus it will 'dispose' of it...and she told me what to look for and when I would need to go to the hospital...lovely...

Anyhow, I'm doing okay. I'm kinda tired of this roller coaster of a ride...happy, unhappy, happy, unhappy, etc...but I think I will be fine...

So I will post more once I know the blood results...but once again...I'm preparing myself for the worst..but hoping for the best...but I have little hope...I believe you need to go with your gut and I have a strong feeling about this...

Tara