These days...

These days are going okay for us. I've been down for a little while, since I heard about the Sherwood Park fire. I was so sad to hear that more people are victims of fires. Its so sad knowing that out there, not far away are people feeling helpless...like we were feeling not long ago. I hate knowing that people are hurting like we were. I don't wish this to ANYone...not even my worst 'enemy' (which I don't have one) but still. I would never want anyone to go through this. Its horrible...but the first few days are the worst. The day it happened, early hours Sunday we were just in shock...but come that night and checking into a hotel..it was becoming too real. For the FIRST time in my whole entire life..staying in a hotel was 'home'...it was so hard knowing that we didn't have a home to go 'home' to when we checked out of the hotel. The feeling of having 'nothing' is a bad bad feeling.

I'm very very overwhelmed.....there is just so much going on in my life...I need a day off. Honestly.

1) the daycare, we have a open house tomorrow night. Means the daycare has to be completely perfect and clean and ready to go...then we run 3 more in the next week or so. So we have been trying to get that all done, which entails tons of shopping and putting stuff together and so on....its brutal.

2) Vegas. We booked it in May, for Christmas. Our passport (which they pulled out of our house) are water damaged. So much so that they won't let us travel with them. So, we went to reapply...and we couldn't because Fabe has to apply for a Canadian Citizen card again...(his was never found) so we had to do that...register mail it and get proof that we have sent it....so we did passport pictures...and then because our passports are damaged we had to swear in how they were damaged and fill out a Declaration of damaged passport form..which we needed a commissioner to sign....so we had to find one...ugh....

3) House stuff. We are battling with the insurance company....they want to keep the damaged foundation....and they want us to have quotes for building a new hosue...but no builders will build on a damaged foundation....or even on a repaired one. They have to completely replace 1 wall and reapir one other wall. Everyone says just to rip it all off and start from fresh....so we have been trying to find a hosue to build....under pressure. Its not 'fun' as we built the house we wanted....we dont' want to do this again.

4) I'm feeling really sad about sending Bandit to the kennel....really sad. He's been through SO much....and he will be so sad sitting in a kennel for 1 week :o(

5) Christmas stuff...I miss my decorations....all the 'babys first christmas' things we hung on the 'kids tree' all of their things they made...and yeah...just so much...

6) Christmas shopping.....not nearly where I should be....

7) I've been thinking about my scrapbooks and photos....I worked so hard on them...and they are gone :o( I loved making them...I loved all my pictures I took. I loved my scrapbook area....

So much.....its so hard to move on....